warning : mentions of smoking! DO NOT SMOKE.. IT’S UNHEALTHY
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Kai cannot wait to jump into the soft mattress and pillow in his house. He has had enough of patience dealing with Baekhyun and Chanyeol's never ending energy, Suho's even worse dad jokes, and he is tired from the repeating dance routine they did today.
In addition to those regular exhaustion, he accidentally met his ex-girlfriend. The accidental meeting alone was actually not a problem; however, his former lover clearly hit on him again, and Dispatch is partying tonight for the hot scandal they made not long ago. Kai was called to the director's room upon the trending false news, and the sky rocketing stock. The hot gossip spreads faster than he can reach home.
Kai paces up his steps and reaches his apartment house. He swiftly presses the 6 digit codes he remember by heart, while praying to all the gods he know that the green light will show.
He closes his eyes when his finger pressed the last digit, he bites his lips and presses down the door handle. His heart almost leaps out of his rib cage when the familiar tone sounds and the door opens. Kai is still able to go home and sleep inside tonight.
He takes his time to have his warm shower, finishes his cup of tea, and of course his 10 steps skin routine. He finishes his preparation for bed, but he's not feeling like sleeping yet. His mind still preoccupies him with the surprising news the whole world read. Kai glances at the sleeping figure on his bed. Yes, he always asks you to sleep first and to not wait for him to come home.
He knows you need sufficient sleep to work from nine to five each day. Usually, you force yourself to wake up and wait for your boyfriend. You feel like it is necessary for couples to wait for each other after work, share about what happened that day, and maybe after some teas you two can go to bed together. Tonight, Kai finds you sound asleep already and he's a tad bit grateful. He kisses your mouth quick and walks to the balcony to clear his mind.
His hand trembles when he takes out a box he has never reached for years. Sadly tonight, he will break the promise he made. Kai lifelessly takes out a bar of cigarette, bites it between his lips, and he lights it up in one go. The small red glow from the bud, accompanies him under the hiding moon. He lets out a trail of smoke out of his lungs and coughs from the foreign feeling. He stops to cough and inhales clean air. He knows if Kyungsoo and (y/n) knows, they will feel sad and Kai especially hates seeing the two of them sad, but he cannot help it today.
His mind is still cloudy from the encounter earlier, the sudden hug, the shocking news, and the company's warning. Little did they know, even the ex girlfriend threatens him earlier. She threatens him by telling Kai that she can bring the break-up incident to the social media and let fans decide what Kai must do.
Although in reality, they break up nicely because Kai doesn't feel the same anymore to his ex upon seeing her walking out of a bar with another man. Kai lets her go nicely, but she doesn't really accept the break up. Kai meets you three months after his heart break and he grows fond of you. He met you when his order of coffee got mixed up with yours. You become the healer of his love life, and you step into a deeper relationship with Kai after three months of knowing one another between tight schedules. You move into a shared apartment after your first anniversary.
Kai reaches for his phone and dials a number hovering in his mind.
"Kyungsoo hyung,"
The talk goes on for a moment, with Kai not realizing you're already eaves dropping him. You know it is wrong to eaves drop someone, but when you smell the faint hint of smoke and you see Kai still not sleeping beside you, you know something is wrong. He reaches for his second bar, and you know you have to stop him right then and there. You rise from the comfortable fortress and slip into your fluffy slippers. You make your way to the half closed French window.
Kai is still taking his time, pouring his emotions into the call with his favorite brother. You stand behind him, wrap your arms around his hard rock torso and you lean in slowly to breathe in his soft shampoo scent. He jolts a bit but puts his palm over yours and slowly caress it.
"Hyung, I think it's all for tonight. Go take some rest, sorry for bothering you. Good night," Kai ends his call urgently and turns off his half smoked bar.
You keep your mouth closed, but your actions shower him with attention and speak enough. He tightens your hug and you clearly see Kai sheds a tear under the moonlight. You're hurt to see the pain in his eyes and the tears that slow but steadily made their way to stream down the perfect face. You bring your thumb to wipe it and pull him to a sweet and slow kiss before he can sob.
You know about the news that afternoon, you know about the fans that are hyping up and wishing them to bring back their relationship. You know about him being called by the company, probably asking him if he is up for another public play.
"It's okay to cry, we will get through this together. I trust you Kai," you pull back and stare into his wet eyes. It hurts you so much to see tears falling down from that same eyes that always offer you the stars and galaxy. After all idols are also humans, Kai is a human who bleeds when he falls down, he crashes and he breaks down. He feels touched when he realizes you trust him with all your heart that he knows which is the right thing to do.
"I'm going crazy. They're now controlling my life even to my love life." He forces a smile into his face and after pulling his mind back together he whispers close to your lips, "I need you,"
You push him back and smirk, "You're done crying? Not today nini, you're tired and emotional. A good cuddle to sleep is what you need."
Kai steals another quick kiss and drags you into the warm room. He closes the French window and draws the curtain back. You jump to the bed faster than him, your eyes are aching to close. Kai walks to the other side, before stopping at your words.
"Kai, stop smoking. I am not kissing your mouth anymore. It feels and smells smoke."
He smiles, brushes his teeth and return to hug you by your side. You smell his fresh scent and nod, "That's better. Please instead of smoking, just share to me what is bothering your mind. Wake me up if I fell asleep like before. Your well being is more precious than my sleep. Now, good night sweetheart, I trust you and I love you."
Kai pulls you close in his warm embrace; he thanks Heaven for sending him a precious significant other who loves him dearly. He sniffs in your sweet scent and drive himself to join you dreaming.
