#kaiotalks

[vulpinecyanide]

The biggest problem about being an insomniac that's basically nocturnal is that when im really ill, like i am right now, i cant sleep early to rest so im probably gonna feel even shittier later on =n= oh well.

[vulpinecyanide]

TL;DR - FOLLOW ME ON TWITCH FOR SALT AND ANIME

http://twitch.tv/vulpinecyanide

Currently no schedule, but I’m trying to stream daily, around 6pm-7pm GMT till whenever!

Stream is mainly League of Legends with a group of friends, and we do get bored of it sometimes and play other stuff like Left 4 Dead 2 and junk. Everyone’s welcome to join us on any of the games we play c: I occasionally watch anime too when I’m taking breaks so HEY let’s all be weebs together!

Currently I’m playing Hatoful Boyfriend in between League matches ‘coz why the hell not, so check that out if ya want!

Anyways, tl;dr; If you wanna chill and watch dumb gameplay or join our games, and witness me be the saltiest, dorkiest motherfucker, then check out that channel!

[vulpinecyanide]

Drunk.

The numbness on your face hits you. All of a sudden you’re invincible. Emotional and emotionless. Regrettable decisions could be made. Unforgettable moments could be made. In an instant, it’s now or never. I love being drunk. I love drunk people. Not the I won’t remember a goddamn thing tomorrow and I have no idea what’s going on anymore drunk. No, I’m talking the kind of drunk when you can still feel the world and everything seems okay for the moment drunk. The kind of drunk where everything that is a risk is something you’re not afraid of. The numbness on your face hits you. All of a sudden you’re asleep. But goddamn did you have a good time being on top of the world for a moment.

[vulpinecyanide]

Maybe it’s just my spontaneous nature but I love the whole “learn as you go” concept. I mean, I suppose it’s all about making mistakes since life is full of them. And not just mistakes. Experiences. Life is better when you take a risk. Sometimes it’s good to just let go of whatever’s holding you back and dive in. Whether you don’t know what to expect or you’re not expecting anything at all, you won’t know unless you take the leap and risk, right?

[vulpinecyanide]

I need a globe that I can throw, a road map of England, one of those toy guns that shoot out "BANG!", a lot of paper boats, a bag of ice, a pack of cigarettes, and a notebook.

[vulpinecyanide]

I wanna play drums again so I can play "For The Nights I Can't Remember" by Hedley coz something about that song just gets me ok. I also miss playing piano gdi aojkawdakj

[vulpinecyanide]

Resolutions.

Ok. I was convinced there wouldn't be anything but think I've got a new year's resolution. None of that new year, new me shit though. This year, I will create more music. Create more art. Create more films and take more photographs. I will do anything and everything I can to advance in the career path I've chosen so many years ago. I plan to be successful. To take my parents out of debt. This year, I'm going to be happy because I know better now and I will make it better and more productive than last year. 2013 was such a stand still for me and it's all because of a relationship that ended at the start of the year. I got lazy and became hopeless but along the way, I've met more people and learned new things and those have put back some pieces of hope for me. I'm done losing at my own game. I'm done grieving my friends and family that have passed away in the previous years. I'm done feeling regret by some. I'm done doubting my abilities because, y'know what? I'm fucking amazing and impressive. 2014. We're each other's bitches. Let's see who whips who. ADSUM. I am here.

[vulpinecyanide]

song nice jams u guys should listen to; Pet Lions - Stuck At The Bottom Noah & The Whale - Five Years Time Bad Books - Forest Whitaker Ed Sheeran - I See Fire Lupe Fiasco - Old School Love (ft. Ed Sheeran) Childish Gambino - 3005 Jhené Aiko - Bed Peace (ft. Childish Gambino) Hedley - Headphones Panic! At The Disco - Collar Full yes hot jams