May 19
Okay so the inner monologue thats actually a dialogue thats actually sort of outer also
My outer dialogue with myself just now had one member differentiate herself from the other (unusual but not unexpected to me) but also! She specifically differentiated herself from nebulous others
Oh dear have I been hmmmmmmm
Hmmmmmmmm
I don't wanna say it
I have a history of imagining symptoms and its not unreasonable to think I just want to fit in
But also I've talked aloud to myself as though I'm trying to take care of someone whos more "me" than my voice talking to it
Either that makes complete sense or zero and I don't wanna think about it to be honest bc I don't wanna think about it
#kairiak#I just realized like I've always found one specific joke comment rly funny even though I never claimed#you know#basically the comment is someone mentrions how many oeople are in the room#and you respond ''theres At Least X people here'' where X is the number of bodies but doesnt count alters or headmates#anyway I was thinking about how egg me thought some trans jokes were really good in a similar way#but I don't wanna say it because I don't wanna make it real#I have enough on my plate lmao