I went to the opening of the Ameya Dance and Entertainment Hall this past weekend. I have not been out in such a public way since I returned from the Steppes. I was pretty anxious that I might have some sort of breakdown while there, but I was able to keep my composure. There were many performers, and everyone did very well. I knew may of the performers already, such as Lovesick Girls, and Hauchi-Fe--and of course, who doesn't know Savo? But there were also some performers whose work was new to me.
I sat in one of the back rows, in case there might be some pyrotechnics that would make me jump should I sit closer. Also, I think I was afraid someone would see me and react to my appearance. I am not sure why I am worried. Other people change their appearance quite often, and no one comments at all. No one spoke to me, however, so if anyone noticed me, I heard nothing of it.
Menphina Madness begins soon, and thus cheer rehearsals are beginning. I shall need to keep my energy up. It will be hard to be cheerful for such an extended time, I fear. But I will show no weakness. I shall not fail my brothers and sisters of cheer.
I have begun to think of performing again. I am finding myself drawn to different music lately, though. I am not sure if people will accept me singing more serious songs. Though I suppose it is arrogant of me to assume people remember my past performances. I shall not dwell on it.
It has been quiet at the Lamb lately, and many of the Silvergrace students are away. I feel sort of . . . hollow on my own. I hope this ends soon.
