#kalusru

[kalusru]

lowkey becoming myself in middle school again but with the adult independence

just drove to get hair dye and fruit, took a stop in the music section and perused the kpop albums (bts and svt were both there (my favs in middle school)), saw a rainbow in the parking lot (baby gay me wpuld love it), and blasted old kpop while driving home, feeling foolish and silly thw whole time think abt how embarrassing it all is but also now im doing things i once sooo wanted to do, but couldnt for a variety of reasons

i dont have enough confidence as an adult to feel truly good abt these things but it is fascinating to be here doing them

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when the period bloat has worn off so i feel the smallest bit hot again!! im completely responsible for feeding myself for the first time and am paranoid abt my health!!!

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the twilight zone s1e17

this is the first one that genuinely scared me. like in part bc gambling completely ruining a mans life is commoj and very grounded in reality but more truthfully bc of that voice. whatever distortion they did to make the name franklin sound like it came from an evil coin slot machine worked. and it worked so well. that voice was so fucking creepy EUGH. that voice was so effective and unsettling. im watching another episode just to shake that one. ugh

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one of my favorite features on tumblr is the ability to (quick) reblog a post over and over and over and over and over

it is so effective for conveying a certain mania about the post or topic without using a single word

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3 weeks into intership. finally far enough from the school year that im starting to go crazy (positive) finally. drove aimlessly down a gravel road listening to classic rock. wandered in the walmart deeply confused and looked at the hair dye options. am starting to think about when and how i kight dye my hair. did a bunch of laundry. made and overbrewed a bunch of iced black tea. listened to cars by gary numan for like 15 mins on loop. its raining insanely hard. need to catch up the twilight zone big time. want to draw. next week we do the exhibition install. things may be looking up. i feel a fundamental difference in who i am now to who i was just 2 years ago. things are happening in my mind again. :>

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s1e3

such an oddly heartwarming story in the end. [spoilers incoming] when the peddler was named fate i was somehow more endeared than rolling my eyes (probably just because i have affection for this show, plus its older idk) but the fact that fate didnt just act in denton's favor how one would typically expect was really really nice. the young man was a mirror of denton before his spiral, and to save both from the same future was great. also a fan of the closeups of fate just smiling cheekily. very fun.

also the mean guy in the first act. i hate to say it. hot. dressed in all black w leather, an odd manic look in his eyes, and little curls of hair poking out from his cowboy hat to dangle in his eye? im sorry thats checking all the boxes! i want to look like him! despite him being a horribly mean and cruel character! also the one woman character is also gorgeous and so kindhearted.

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im off doing an internship and so i decided to watch the entirety of the first run of the twilight zone over the course of my time away/alone. im watching 1-2 episodes per night, and am gonna share any thoughts i have here! be warned! be very very warned!

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turning 21. i feel genuinely ill