Yesterday as I awake at 7am I jump up to my phone hoping I received a message from my love but to my disappointment there was nothing, instead posts from the other WAGs about receiving texts and calls already. My heart broke into a million pieces. I started worrying he didn’t want to talk, did he not charge his phone, has his phone privileges been taken away, maybe hes too busy for me?
I needed to get ready for work with my head high as my two little men had woken as well. My oldest sees sad in my eyes and asks “Mummy whats wrong? Do you miss Daddy” just with that I broke down. He crawled over and grabbed my hand and reassured that everything is going to be okay, and hes here to look after me. How about that, a 5 year old reassuring me!
Breakfast is done, my Mum wakes up and so I leave giving everlasting kisses to my little soldiers.
Its 9.03am now and my ‘knock knock’ message tone goes off. IT’S HIM! “Hey my darling just at church hopefully by the time I get a chance to call you’ll be free love and miss you guys so much really home sick” Let me tell you, my heart sank and hit the ground and crying was instant. My tears were like a bloody waterfall! I could hardly contain myself, smiling and crying at the same time. With shaking hands I reply “Omggggggg, I have been waiting for this 😭😭😭😭”
We exchanged texts and I actually posted a photo prior to this post so check it out.
He finally called me after church and as soon as I answered he just bawled his eyes out. I have not heard my man cry like this ever and Im talking I have been with him for 8years now. But we have never been apart for this long before. I would say 2days MAX but we were still constantly texting and calling but 5days without any contact with your soul mate really takes a toll on your heart and soul.
He couldn’t stop telling me how much he loved us, how much he missed us, how things would be so much easier if we were there to remind him it will be okay. He knew it was gonna be hard but he didn’t have me there to cheer him on and giving him those much needed cuddles when he was down, he even admitted he would prefer kisses and cuddles over sex. Now that was a surprise for me cos well he loves to get dooooown.
I couldn’t tell him I was okay eventhough I knew it would’ve been the right thing so he can be strong. I wanted him to know that it is hard without him, that I love him more than he could ever imagine and although I am struggling it will all be fine and we can do this. And remind him this is all for not just our future but for our boys futures too.
An 1hr phone call felt like 5mins, it just wasnt enough. It wasn’t enough just hearing his voice and not seeing his beautiful face. Not being able to feel his touch but it definitely was enough to give me that little bit of strength I need until I talk to him next Sunday.