bc iren already asked abt the rivers fic that i also wanted to ask, PLS TELL ME UR THOUGHTS RE: THE LAST SECTION IN FORTY YARDS starting from "There are many things you won't ever forget about Liverpool. Barnes's two goals and your Dad's hand. The taste of the Champions' League trophy (and of other things). The first time you walked out here, and now -"
SDKJFLSDJFLKSDJ U LIV MONSTER………vores ur paws
okay okay okay full disclosure: i hate liverpool more than anything and i’m also more jealous of them than any other club in the PL and it’s very? confusing? I don’t know. I think it harks back to the way that Gaz talks about them or the way that Steeb talks about us - and this is something that keeps coming back whenever we talk about this rivalry - it’s that it’s different, somehow, from other ones like say Newcastle/Sunderland or even El Clasico - because of the similarities of our rises and falls and how the rivalry is rooted in jealousy - down from the industrial rivalry - which somehow makes everything...different....
ANYWAY I DIGRESS BUt that’s what makes writing liwerpuwul easier I guess?? for me?? because I get where you’re coming from and where steeb is coming from, and it’s really just writing about united in the guise of liv hurrrrrrr *mancsona* but also I admire and am jealous of the liv narratives of istanbul and ynwa and the kop end singing because if there’s one thing I can admit it’s that ggmu does not sound as good as ynwa...(BUT WE HAVE WE’LL NEVER DIE SO IT’S OK)
SO UH TO GO BACK TO FIC - it was just, like, all of these liv feelings + all of these steeb feelings because YOU KNOW I HAVE A LOT OF ONE CLUB MEN FEELINGS - the way they tie themselves to the club, the way their entire lives are defined by how they have played and what they have done - I always remember yr goddamn gifset of the interviewer telling steeb the Margaret Aspinall quote and it kills me - I don’t know how to explain this and I feel like only people who have had one club players at their clubs will be able to understand this but it just KILLS ME THE NARRATIVE!!!
SO I GUESS!!! this whole bit was me trying to figure out how to explain what steeb meant to the club and more importantly what the club meant to him - it’s kind of like stepping on a stage and off again at the same time - leaving and coming home - it’s horribly circular the way they feed off each other and the way they always come back. and I found it curious for steeb because my lads have never had that big send-off (stares at scholesy just walkin off and telling NO ONE) or even that one year hurrah in the USA and I can’t imagine what kind of decision it must have been for steebie? or what he mustve felt! just the overwhelmingness - and you could see he was overwhelmed, i watched his farewell thing TOO MANY TIMES to write this - and I just tried to stack up everything, Anfield and the history and his trophies and the number and the make us dream that hurts all the time (because he did and didn’t - it’s that whole idea of loyalty vs trophie and I love that Liv is so dedicated to him Despite It All) - and slug it out in one emoshfest !! And I love doing throwbacks so it’s like - harking back to Ya Beauty, his goal, his best goal, now applied to the best experience of his life. And how all of his trophies fit in with something as small as a debut against Blackburn. AND THE ONE COLOUR. because isn’t it always? that colour?
SO. UH. IT WAS JUST ABOUT ME SINNING HARD FOR STEEB AND THE FANS’ DEVOTION TO HIM BECAUSE I AM A HO FOR DEVOTION. AND BELIEF. AND LOVE. GOODNIGHT.