{ sms: kibum } Hi. I know you would rather not hear from me right now, but I only wanted to wish you a happy birthday. { sms: kibum } I hope everything is going okay for you and you're looking after yourself. { sms: kibum } Sorry for bothering you. { sms: kibum } Just, happy birthday. - Jinki.
[ let’s just pretend i actually answered these last saturday (september 26th) like i was supposed to. ic, this is probably set on thursday the 24th, when kibum got back in the country and finally turned his phone off roaming ]
{ ` the sight of the contact name on his phone has his heart stopping for a moment, and when it resumes beating it feels as though it’s sitting at the back of his throat instead of his chest. he’s thankful that he’s alone in his bedroom right now -- he doesn’t have to spend too much energy trying to mask the emotions these texts cause and can instead just let it wash over him. he leans against the nearest wall and slumps down it until he’s sitting on the ground, realizing that at least part of the pain in his chest has come from the fact that he’s been forgetting to breathe. he inhales again, though every breath he takes is shallow and thin, and he can feel tears welling up in his eyes as he reads the texts over and over}
{ sms ; trot lover } you’re not bothering me
{ ` he sends it without thinking, because he doesn’t want jinki to think that kibum hates him, because he doesn’t. he continues typing, wondering how his fingers seem to know exactly what to say even though his mind seems to have shut down completely}
{ sms ; trot lover } i’m glad you texted me ^-^ i’m probably responding late, but i was in london on my actual birthday, so i couldn’t receive texts or anything until just now
{ sms ; trot lover } i miss you a lot [ deleted! ]
{ sms ; trot lover } i really regret leaving you but [ deleted! ]
{ sms ; trot lover } thanks, jinki. i had a great birthday, and i hope you’re doing well too.
{ sms ; trot lover } i still love you [ deleted! ]