Hanahaki is a seasonal illness
And it gets worse each time it happens
I hate being a burden, an inconvenience
But I want to do things that I know will make me happy
I want to share my emotions, but I don't want to bother others with them
I want to see the happiness I can bring to others, but I know not everyone wants it
To force it is never the answer
So I start feeling shame
It's what I taught myself
Probably somewhere in my repressed memories, I'd know who it was who first taught me to feel shame
But I blinded myself to the feelings of others
Because there's no chance someone besides me can begin feeling these things first
Feeling such strong emotions
To the point that they want to burst out of this fragile skin body
And suffocate everyone around











