Jan 22, 2019
Kian harmonizing to Lost On You by Lewis Capaldi
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Kian harmonizing to Lost On You by Lewis Capaldi
Me or Him. (Kian Lawley imagine #4)
-requested by Anonymous-
“Chloroplasts... the green pigment in plants.” I whispered to myself. I was studying for this upcoming biology test. As much as I’d hate to admit it, I was stressing. Yes, I was stressing this test, but now i’m mostly worried about Kian and my relationship. It has been going on strong for a year and a half. I had high expectations for us, but now I am not so positive, but still hoping. Kian has been very distant lately. He is beginning to come home later than usual, always has earbuds in, and he replies in one or two word sentences. About a week ago, I have attempted to talk to him about it. He told me that he is fine and that it is nothing to worry about. I did not want to start a fight, so I shook my head and moved on. It is getting to the point where it is scaring me, but if he doesn’t want to love me anymore, I can’t force him. I closed my laptop and went to bed... without Kian... once again.
The next morning, I woke up and Kian was beside me. I got up and decided to make him his favorite breakfast. Maybe it would make him happy and less stressed. I was hoping that stress was all it was. Kian always loved it when I made him chocolate chip pancakes with bacon and coffee. Fifteen minutes later, I quietly went up the stairs into the bedroom to present him with his breakfast, but he was out of bed.
“Kian?” I asked.
“What?”
“Where are you?”
“In here” I heard him say coming from in the bathroom.
The door was open, so he wasn’t using the toilet. I walked in and saw him combing his hair.
“I made you breakfast.” I smiled.
“I’m not hungry.” He looked at me and the continued getting ready.
“Oh... okay. A-are you sure?” I whispered.
“Yes!” he said with an annoyed tone.
I said nothing more and headed down the stairs and threw out the food. A moment later, he came down the stairs. He put on his black leather jacket and walked into the living room to grab his keys.
“Where are you going?” I asked with the lack of a response. He walked out the door. I chased him out the door.
“Kian! Where are you going?!?!”
“I’m going out!” he exclaimed.
“I love you.” I whispered as I watched him back out of the driveway.
A tear fell from my eye and ran down my cheek.
The thoughts that were running through m mind were things such as:
“He doesn’t love me anymore.”
“He found someone better than me.”
“Why?”
I needed someone to talk to. I needed answers. I needed someone to helo me find answers... but who...? Then it came to me. Jc. No one else knows Kian better than Jc. I pulled out my phone and called him.
“Hello?”
“Jc, I need your help.”
“What’s wrong? Are you okay?”
“It’s about Kian. I need you to come over. I have to talk about this in person.”
“Is Kian home?”
“No, I don’t know where he went he left this morning and didn’t tell me.”
“(Y/N), I don’t thi-”
“Jc, It doesn’t matter. I need to see you.”
There was a pause.
“I’ll be there in 10.”
I hung up.
The ten minutes past and there was a knock at the door. I got up and let him in. He hugged me and I told him to go have a seat on the couch.
“Do you want a drink?” I asked him.
“I’d love one.”
“Come in here and pick.”
He walked in to see all the alcoholic beverages on display on the counter.
“Oh man, are you sure we should be drinki-”
“Jc, we both are going through some tough shit. It’s on me.”
“You’re right.”
We got our drinks and sat down. We were talking about Kian and what he has been doing while Jc was telling me about his recent past relationship. Jc has just broken up with his ex. So it is clear that we both were in stress. I know drinking isn't the best thing to do, but it’s the best painkiller. After hours of rambling and drinking, we have lost touch with reality and next thing I knew, I was on his lap kissing him. One thing leads to another and the rest was history.
Kian didn’t come home that night. I had no idea where he was, but in the moment it didn’t matter.
Two days later, he came home.
“KIAN! WHERE THE FUCK WHERE YOU??”
“Jc’s”
“YOU LIAR!” I screamed.
“HOW WOULD YOU KNOW I WASN’T THERE?”
I stood there in silence trying to think of how I could possibly know.
“Huh? Yeah... I know where you’ve been. Little did you now, I did come home that night. You were too drunk to notice the door open. I saw everything. I saw you cheat on me with my best friend. I wasn’t at Jc’s....obviously. I was at Harrison’s. We were filming the intro to a video. The video where I was going to propose to you in. I wanted you to be my forever. I wanted to spend my whole fucking life with you. Here. You can fucking have this because I sure as hell don’t fucking need it.”
He reached into his pocket and pulled out a small box and threw it at me. I stood there speechless.
“Ki-Kian.”
I started to cry.
“Baby, we were drunk! I was hurting!”
“So you hop on my best friend’s dick just because you are lacking something?”
“Kian. I needed answers. Why were you being so distant with me? I tried to talk to you, but I got nothing. I needed the next best thing and that was Jc. I invited him over to talk about you. I thought he might know what is going on with you because he is your best friend. He came over and I offered him a drink. One after the other lead to huge mistakes. I don’t want him, I love you! I know you may not believe me now but I am telling you the truth.”
“Me or him.”
“What?”
“Me or him!”
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From that day on, I never looked at anyone else. Kian is the only one for me. I love him more that I have ever loved anyone. Two years after that, we are married with a baby on the way. It took Kian a little bit of time to open back up, but that is understandable. We had a long talk about why I did what I did and why he was distant. Everything is okay. He understands that I was drunk and stupid. Now we are as happy as can be. As for Jc, we are alright, but there is a little awkward tension. Kian and Jc made up after a month lon g break from YouTube. I still can not believe that Kian stayed. He had every reason to leave me. I guess love is impossible to explain.
Omg! Kian needs to do a cover of this song asap.
Kian and Jc surprising Anderson with an iMac. Anderson’s reaction is so pure.
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