idk if it helps but im not spiritual either so??? i want to believe in an afterlife but i really dont. i do believe that his energy is now one with the universe and it circulates through all of us and that our memories/things we associate him with like the moon help to create new energy in his name and that energy circulates as well and although thats my Core belief i still want ghostly experiences with him or smth or Odd things to prove hes in an afterlife but Nope
a summary of my beliefs is that i don’t think theres any ‘thing’ that exists about us that is discrete from our bodies or that is somehow separated from physical matter. i just think our minds and selves are a product of our body so once thats gone then… well. the most i can push my spiritual beliefs is that the matter that made him up still… exists so you can frame that in a sort of poetic sense to be about him existing still? but its still entirely metaphorical bc i don’t think that matter like, has some kind of “essence” that is uniquely jonghyun (bc in general i dont think the matter that once was part of a person carries something recognizably of that person after they pass) or that it constitutes anything that is coherently him. so its still mostly hollow to think about. it’s all pretty bleak. i wish i had the comfort of believing in like, anything really, but i don’t and i don’t see that changing bc thatd take a rly intrinsic restructuring of my beliefs. it just sucks dude. its just really depressing but it does kinda help to see ppl in similar places
