Kids, huh
so my 10 year old son, honestly loses his shit at me all the time, when i try to talk to him he yells that i care about his sisters more than him, that i like them more.. all while yelling and screaming while im trying my best to talk to him normally.
when your medicated and try to lower the doses and this bullshit makes you think you need to up it again because being yelled at all the time isnt my idea of fun.
for some reason i've always wanted to give them the things i didn't get as a kid, but they dont even appreciate it - they just want more more more, like the cost of living isnt an issue right now.
this is all over the place..
i miss my mum, i wish she was here to help me navigate this, my dads great .. but i hate this time of year.. when it reminds me that i lost one of my best friends and my mum within a year of each other yet their anniversaries are only 10 days apart.
i dont know i feel fucking defeated - my almost 4 year old has the attitude of the 8 & 10 year olds & i love my kids i do, but god i need a break from their fighting and attitudes and tattle telling.. theyre the best kids for everyone else but us.
and yeah i know im a good mum, i know my mum would be proud of me but fuck thats not what i want to hear when i feel this way.
ughh fuck its so fucking hard putting on the happy go lucky face some days man
youd think after 10 years id know wtf im doing and how to handle it 🙄
and back to mr 10 - we are building an extension on the house so they can all have a new room, thought that because he's the oldest and the only boy he could have it , well fuck me he's not appreciative of that at all - makes me want to burn it all🔥
i think this is whats causing the excessive migraines too
