#kief.txt

[mournmage]

Thinking this afternoon about how so many people who romanced Anders considered him blowing up the Chantry to be a betrayal and how that just. Never really clicked for me to call it that. Because so explicitly So many times over the relationship he tells you this will be messy and never easy and at one point even explicitly says some things are bigger than he and Hawke's relationship and it is just. So clear that he loves them but they can't and won't stop him. And I cannot feel betrayed at all when he was upfront about that consistantly tbh.

[inhabited-by-something]

He's the only one I've seen outside of fnaf fans who gets it

[windup-elezen]

The stars aligned for once for me, @hermitminded, @angel-trapped and @adrianicsea to finally play xiv together so we had to get family photos ~

[mournmage]

I don't know if everyone has seen this little bit of dialogue from Emmrich post fade prison, but I saw it for the first time the other day on my second play thru and it has not left my mind since tbh.

[mournmage]

Anders: I've tried to forget about this side of myself. Justice is... so strong. Sometimes the Wardens seem insignificant. But seeing that poor bastard brings it all back. The Darkspawn taint. The call of the archdemon. It's inside me, as much a part of me as Justice. Hawke: Never bothered me before. Anders: You should find someone else, love. You don't want all the ugliness I'm going to bring into your life. Hawke: Not a chance.

It's the way that red!Hawke is Continuously across the entire game with a romanced Anders so very direct and assured in the fact that they just aren't going to give up on him no matter what worries he might have about himself. He thinks they deserve more or better and every time the answer is the same, that he's exactly who they want to be with and they're not asking him to be more or to be less of the problem he perceives himself to be. Very "you're stuck with me for better or worse" energy and I live for it.

[mournmage]

Saw someone call Anders a "fandom darling." You sure about that? Are you really sure about that???

[mournmage]

This fucking kills me everytime I see it because it's like Anders is over here giving Hawke literal heart eyes for saying they'd rather not kill mages and do templar work and it's like Please I am begging you to raise your standards the bar is on the floor

[mournmage]

Everyday I think about how the narratively unavoidable thing that ties a lot of Hawke and Varric's relationship together is literally being forced to fight their way out of the Deep Roads and possibly subseqeuently losing their siblings together in one fell swoop. Like man if I had to go thru that with someone else I'd also end up weirdly attached for life.