#kieranfictive

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going from being something that feeds off of love to this is weird. i still feel that need for it and it consumes me but i hate being loved because it feels wrong and weird and incorrect. it almost feels sickening even though objectively nothing is bad about it.

maybe i just miss everyone. it might be that. its probably that.

- kieran (tag both fictive and fictionkin please <33)

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Looking through fandom tags for stuff about me and my sister, and just feeling really weird bc of how people talk about her.

Yeah, in the game she’s not great to my counterpart, and was definitely part of the reason he/I had my little spiral. She’s needlessly harsh, constantly teases me in a way that would be fine if not for everything else, and hides things that she knows are important to me (like Ogerpon). She wasn’t purposefully mean or anything, but her actions definitely had a negative effect.

But my Carmine wasn’t like that!! Yeah she had some problems too, but she genuinely tried to be a good older sister to me! And she recognized her mistakes and worked to fix them unlike the her in the game! After everything in Teal Mask and me changing so much, she tried and tried to reach out and help, no matter how much I pushed her away. And we worked on fixing things between us after the Indigo Disk stuff went down; we were super close after that.

I want to talk about how much I love and miss her, but I’m just worried about actually doing it because of her being not-great in source… Nothing against anyone out there that is more similar to her in-game self!! I know you guys had your brothers’ best interests at heart too!

-Kieran (Pokémon Scarlet/Violet DLC, fictive, #🌲⚠️💫)

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Appreciation post for all my friends from Blueberry Academy!! (Well, the ones that aren’t here in the system hehe! Sis and Drayton already get plenty of appreciation ^^)

Lacey I miss you so much! I remember when we went shopping together after I came out as non-binary, and you helped me pick so many cute outfits! I really wish I still had them here :< You were always so nice to talk to and hang out with and I really hope you’re doing well now <3

Crispin!! You were always a blast to hang out with and battle! I still don’t really understand your love for spicy food, but it was always so fun cooking with you!! If you’re still cooking now I know all your dishes are just as delicious as they were back then!

Amarys, we never really hung out all that much, but I miss you too! You were always such a grounding force when the rest of us in the League Club got a little carried away hehe, and I know how happy you made my sis when you talked ^^ Wishing you the best!!

-Kieran (Pokémon scarlet/violet fictive, #🌲⚠️💫)

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Seeing how popular the “Toxic Chain/Pecharunt possession” AU is is kinda funny to me

Everyone always writes it like “Ooooo Pecharunt is using Kieran for its own goals and it’s hurting Kieran in the process” (which I do enjoy reading; it can be pretty interesting)

Then here I am, Toxic Chain-ed and enjoying it with no notable negative effects, and I got a friend out of it

Me willing working with Pecharunt and not resisting its influence like a “normal” person would led to some interesting side effects, like me sorta becoming part Pokémon? Me and the peach were both freaking out at first because of it lol; it’s not exactly normal for a human to suddenly have fangs and a tail (that looks like said chain) after all haha

Anyways idk where I was going with this lol; just felt like rambling about my memories a bit

I doubt my Pecharunt is ever gonna see this, but if you do, I miss ya, you silly peach (affectionate)

-Kieran (Pokémon fictive)

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I never got to tell you this back when we were still in Kitakami/Paldea, but Florian, I did and still do like you so, so much

I wish I got a chance to tell you when we were still able to see each other, but hey, better late than never huh? Hehe…. (Nervous laughter)

I hope you’re having a good Valentine’s Day with your loved ones now; me, Carmine, and Juliana all miss you a lot <3

(Also I think you’d like to know that Julie and Carmine finally admitted they like each other! And since they got together they’ve been teasing me about confessing to you haha; that’s kinda what prompted this)

-Kieran (Pokémon Scarlet/Violet fictive, #🌲⚠️💫)

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Hihi Fictionkinfessions! Kieranpon here hehe :D

Being from an AU that takes two people that are separate in this world (Kieran and Ogerpon) and makes us one and the same is… definitely something!

Seeing what the other worlds’ Kierans went through because of their obsession with Ogerpon, then me, Kieranpon (as I have been dubbed; I kinda like the name!) sitting here watching and wishing their lives could have gone better…

I don’t know if there are any other Kierans on this blog, but I really hope you guys are doing well here and now! Or at least better than back then! Sending you all a big hug from your local Ogre! Pon pon!

-Kieran/Ogerpon (Pokémon Scarlet/Violet fictive, Kieranpon AU, #🌲⚠️💫)

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Oh boy playlists! Those are our favorite things ever. All of these are fictives. I, Kieran, absolutely love freaky old horror Vocaloid music and I feel like the fandom doesn't really expect that? In the playlists of myself I don't really see ANY Vocaloid music, really, and especially not any horror ones. Also a huge fan of metal, especially Utsu-P's music.

Emmet really likes Lemon Demon music but refuses to add any to his playlist because of the way people view playlists with Lemon Demon songs on them. (Gloria [host's kin] doesn't feel the same and has Niel's entire discography on its playlist, which its playlist in full would take 3 days to listen to without considering the ungodly amount of ads Spotify plays.)

Blue Oak listens to a lot of Vocaloid music and ethereal, angelic style music. Her favorite Vocaloid songs are Dysphoric by angelbrained and Angel 92 by Maretu, which I think most Pokèmon fans would get really confused by. (We hate Maretu as a person, we just like his music.)

Snowball (BFDI) really likes artists like TV Girl. Not sure what to call his favorite genre, he listens to slow emotional music I guess. He's definitely not the rock and roll/metal listener that the fandom probably sees him as.

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