You guys don’t have to read this if you don’t want to 😊
This beautiful month of june is my birthday as well as my little sister’s and my aunt who owns the house we’re living in.
Last year, i spent my birthday cooking and smiling for guests my mother invited. I don’t know a single person who was eating the food i helped to cook. My real friends were in a different city either preparing to graduate or going out for work. They greeted me happy birthday through texts and facebook messages, hell my crush even greeted me! But that doesn’t change the fact that last year was the worst birthday i had in my years living in this planet called earth.
The people in my house that day kept on asking if i was going to be graduating in a couple of months, and when i said no they ask when, and when i said next year they asked why. I honestly told them that i had trouble finishing my thesis, but my mom always butts in and say that i’m just lazy then laugh it off. I felt lonely. I felt unaccomplished. I felt like a failure.
And now, my parents are fussing over on how to celebrate my sister’s and i’s birthday. They’re planning on going somewhere, buying stuff, etc. I don’t have the heart to say that i don’t want to celebrate anything because i don’t deserve it. Because after a year of trying to graduate, i’m not close to accomplishing the things i promised to do. I’m not going to graduate this year. I don’t have a job. I’m living off the money they are making. I failed.