I will always miss you, and I will always love you, but I don't know if I can be with anyone for a long long time and I don't know what my future looks like anymore. Me loving you doesn't make our futures any more compatible and that's what's killing me I think. That, and knowing how much I hurt you, how much I continue to hurt you, how much me even making posts like this must hurt. 'You call me up again just to break me like a promise / So casually cruel in the name of being honest'. I remember when I heard those words and thought about you, and now I hear them and think of how my honesty doesn't necessarily help but then also what else do i say to you?? I'm so sick of being unintentionally cruel, of hurting you. You have never deserved it.
