It seems like the last month has just been never ending anxiety and stress. At the moment, I really do feel like crying. I’ve been lying down and my heart speeds up and I get too scared and tense to fall asleep....
I don’t feel like I can talk to anyone without feeling like I’m a bother, and it’s aggrivating. There are so many things I want to say, but I feel like I can’t. I’m stressing out over such little shit that I’m tired. I’m exhausted.
Going back to therapy, almost made it seem like it was a mistake. My therapist almost made it seem like I didn’t need it- but... I don’t want to just be a burden on my parents in that sense either.. Everything is becoming more stressing and more nerve wrecking and I’ve gone back to second guessing myself. I’m withdrawing again and it’s terrifying me.
I’m really scared to break down again. In front of someone, because of something stupid because of emotional build up.