kilifilings replied to your post: hey this supercool girl i know has birthday today so it would be rly awesome if you could make her an adorible adam brown gif ok, thanks
how did you know it was me, thats no fair! and no pressure, I just felt the need to ask for something :]
YOU ARE STILL AWAKE
WHEN I SAID "SPEND YOUR ENTIRE BIRTHDAY AWAKE" I WAS JOKING
hey this supercool girl i know has birthday today so it would be rly awesome if you could make her an adorible adam brown gif ok, thanks <3 and furbys are cool so no more dissing pls or i'll send you one
i have no idea what the fuck you are talking about
will do it later in the day, love so that it’s hopefully up when you’re back from work <3 i love you, go to bed you need to get up in 5 hours. love you GO TO BED
a HobbitCon 2013 aftermath plus lifechanging decisions
or rather the explanation of why I haven't posted my pictures yet or met with any of you guys at the convention.
let's start off with a DISCLAMER: HobbitCon was a wonderful convention, and the people that organised it are to be admired. things ran smootly and there was no long queues or any inconviniences what so ever. to anyone who's considering on going next year - DO SO! it's something unforgetable and totally worth it.
I wanted this to be a video, I wanted to have a lot of pictures to share with you guys, I wanted to meet some of you that were going. I wanted so many things, ugh. let's make a list of why I had an okay time
I was sick before I left, and I'm pretty sure I was sick during the con but my body was overexcited so I didn't care for it much.
I spent huge amounts of money getting to Bonn. I live in Croatia and in case you haven't heard - we're a poor country. it's not that bad, especially for me, but if you compare us to west european countries it's pretty bad. the arrival, the ticket, the hostel, the money I spent there it all came out to about a month and a half expenses I spend back home. for the five days of con. and it was worth it, but being in debt put me in such a bad mood.
I usually prepare (HARDCORE PREPARATION) for a travel. I research the city, the country, the public transport, where to eat, what to see. everything. I'm also very good at finding my way when you put me in a new place. I have this internal compass and I'm very good at orientating.
this time I did none of this. we arrived at the airport and I just let the wind blow me wherever. when we arrived at the central station instead of looking where the bus was driving so I know where our hostel is and how to get there I was looking at the window going 'uuuh a tree, ooooh a bird'. I seriously have no idea what came over me.
I didn't have a map of Bonn (WHAT? seriously? ugh.) and I didn't ask for one when we arrived. instead I searched google maps to see how to arrive to the hotel where the con was. and and - listen to this - instead of printing it out like any normal person I thought it would be a wise decision to WRITE DOWN THE INSTRUCTIONS on how to get there. mind you, this wouldn't be that bad if we didn't have to go through a forest.
when I was looking for a hostel I picked that one because it was an hour of walk away from the con. through a park. or so I thought. it was a bloody forest! nevertheless, we were ready for an adventure! after all we were going to hobbitcon and what better way to get there than through a forest. very lord of the rings. anyway, after three hours of walking we finally came to some sort of civilisation. I was so tired and my feet were hurting me really bad now, but it wasn't over. we walked for another hour through the city to find a bus station that could lead us to the hotel. we were totally lost, without a map and there was nobody around. seriously Bonn was an empty place, what with being Easter and everyone was gone. and even if you stumbled upon someone - chances that they're speaking english were around 30%. SO FINALLY WE GOT THERE. late for Dean's panel. imagine that. after everything. late for Dean. I was heartbroken.
the next day was better but still a fail anyway you look at it. the buses were on a sunday schedule because it was easter, and well, sunday. so the first bus we had to take wee were late to. the next came in half an hour. but we needed to wait 56 minutes for the second one. I said: 'fuck this. let's go a few more blocks and catch this other one'. it seemed like a such a good idea. because if we waited for an hour we would be late for Adam. and by the hammer of Thor I was having none of that. so we got off the bus and started searching for the other one (STILL WITHOUT THE CITY MAP MIND YOU) with the bloody bus map that only has stations written on it. after about a half an hour we realise we're going in a different direction. another half an hour and we're still searching for the bloody station. finally we found it. took us about an hour to finally reach the con. we missed a good deal of it again. ugh.
I took a picture with Dean, I look terrible in it. it's okay I'm smiling and all, but I'm so fat goddammit I was so mad at myself. I'm not my best self, I haven't been for a while, and to see that person standing next to him... that's not me. it only made things worse. and the autograph session the next day. wow. that was a dissaster. all the time we were queued up I was repeating 'L-I-N-A' that's how you spell your name. chill. you got this. if you get confused 'I' is how you satre a sentence like 'I was at...' and for 'A' just start the bloody alphabet. you'll be fine. LINA. LINA. LINA.
he was smiling.
D: "hey, what's your name"
me: "Lina."
D: "how do you spell that?"
me: "..."
D: "is it LENA/LINA?" I can't remember what he asked
me: "oh god, I can't believe I can't spell my own name"
he got so serious, I was a bit afraid.
Vita told me later that this was the point he wanted to step in and spell my own name to Dean. good thing he didn't I couldn't live with the embarresment.
FINALLY
me: "L-I-N-A"
D *writing* to Lina, XXX, Dean O'Gorman
D: "is this okay?"
me: "yeah, it's alright". that's what I said, as if it's not really my name but close XD
well, this isn't really the reason I had a bad time, it actually something that I'm laughing about now, but I was so mad at myself back then because I couldn't believe I was so nervous I couldn't spell.
so unorganised that I am I didn't make a costume (altho that's partially because of being broke), I didn't meet anyone there, I was hungry most of the time (since nothing was going according to plan) and generally cranky
so what I've noticed through the con is that my bad decisions I made in the past two years are creeping in everywhere, in every aspect of my life, including what I love most - fiction. I've gained a lot of weight, I haven been studying and I'm just a ball of procrastination. and when I remember who I was it really hurts. I wans't a miracle, but I studied well, I danced and had a great figure and I had so much time for hobbies. now it's only bed and tv shows. I guess I needed this convention. to make me see I've hit my all time low. and I can't keep going like this because every aspect of my life will suffer. I acted like a stupid child, as if someone will take care of me the entire time. I missed some panels and I'll allways regret that. but at least now I know what I'm facing. next year. next year man, it'll be MY YEAR. I'm making a promise here. I'll save money and stay in the convention hotel. if not than in a hostel nearby. I'll make a costume. I'll attend everything I want. I'll be present at the parties. I'll sit it the front rows. I'll buy that lens I wanted for so long and take great pictures without having to get up. I'll lose weight and be happy with myself. I make that promise to you. and I hope I see you there next year. and I hope we have so much fun.
okay, this has been a bit depressing so far, but at least you now know why I'm not all that excited about it. I was really disappointed. not with hobbitcon but with myself. I always heard people say that but I never really knew what it meant until now. it's a whole new specturm of emotions I felt (and am still feeling) - anger, sadness, disappointement. who walks around without a map? who does that? not me. or so I thought.
now here's a list of reasone why I had a great time at HobbitCon
I HUGGED DEAN O'GORMAN. I took a picture with him, I told him where I was from, he said that it was quite a journey.
I got to listen to other actors and I was amazed at how wonderful they all are. so far I would usually listen to Richard/Dean/Aidan interviews. Jed is a whole new level of awesome I didn't know before.
I sat in the audience and a few rows from me sat other dwarves, all of us watching the same people on stage. some of the cast asked or interrupted the ones speaking. it was a wonderful expirience. to see them acting so childish and so like fans, just amazing.
I asked a question and I was given an amazing answer. I asked Jed and Adam would they follow Richard onto a very dangerous quest if he were to ask them. they said absolutley and continued to praise Richard for five more minutes :D another girl later asked Graham and Mark the same question and they had the same answer
I GOT TO HEAR SO MUCH ABOUT THE NAUGHTY DWARF CALENDAR
I saw some amazing cosplay. AMAZING.
I bought an exact replica of the 'Deed of Contract' that Bilbo had in the film. I read through half of it, it's very witty, sassy and bulletproof :)
well, that's it. I might post some pictures later, but don't hope for much. I don't want to give you the wrong impression, I did have fun. I'm just upset at myself for not using my and conventions full potential. at least I know better now. I also ordered the dvd so hopefully I'll see some of the stuff I missed.
