i associate you with literature, the kind you read once, and it shifts your entire perspective on life. i associate you with the smell of the pages of a well loved book. i associate you with one specific song (this is the life by amy mcdonald), you and that song exist in the same part of my brain where my life was altered after hearing it and my life altered after following you. i associate you with the smell of the earth after a thunderstorm, the kind of scent that gives you a sense of calm and belonging. i assocciate you with green. a bottle green kind of green, like the deep green of a forest. and i associate you with the smells and sounds of a forest, too. i associate you with falling in love slowly, where your brain feels kind of foggy and your mind is taken over and numb to everything except The One. i associate you with the ocean, but more specifically the ocean when the wind is high and the clouds are gathering, and it looks like it might storm and there's that smell of rain in the air. i associate you with lily of the valley, such a sweet little flower but so beautiful and enchanting. i associate you with staying up late into the night because you're talking to someone you genuinely enjoy talking to, and you just can not stop no matter how tired you are, and your eyes are burning with the need for sleep but this one person is more important to you than anything else in this moment. i associate you with many things, all of which i love, because i love you.
rin, i want to keep this message burrowed deep in the confines of my tiny heart and happily let it seep through me like remedy on less sunshine-y days. thank you for being a constant of warmth and brightness in my days while we both hang around on this little platform on the internet in the large planet known as earth. time is a weird and often painful thing, but we managed to meet and be alive at the same time, and that’s a blessing to me and a gift. i love you, you are hope in a person. 🤍
what do you associate with me?
