#kingbxsil

[wtfjaykim]

“It’s too much, isn’t it?” Eun-Jae muttered nervously as his brown eyes wandered over the big bouquet of flowers, the box of chocolates and the bottle of wine (along with some other small things he’d gathered together), as the items were placed upon the table. The boy covered his hands with his sleeves, crossed his legs and looked over at Basil again, anxious for his reaction. “I just... I wanted to thank you, since I wouldn’t have made it without your help and I wasn’t sure what you liked, so I just... bought some random stuff. I never really buy gifts for people.” He muttered, a blush on his cheeks. “If it’s too much I can return it. Except maybe the flowers. And the chocolate. I don’t want you to be uncomfortable.” @kingbxsil

[hcsecktae]

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Hoseok has quite a lot of irrational fears, that maybe aren’t exactly phobias but still make him nervous. It’s hard to point out where his phobia lies -- his anxiety is mostly related to his social clumsiness and low self esteem. Perhaps one could say people are his biggest phobia. It’s not that he doesn’t like people and wants to be alone; he does get very lonely and longs for the company of others, but most people make him so nervous that he resorts to isolation to keep himself from getting hurt.

He has a fear of loud noises, of failure, of rejection, of sharp objects (that one he finds particularly weird and embarrassingly ironic). Sometimes just multiple people talking at once can send him into an anxiety attack. He fears confined spaces and dark hallways. Whispering -- ASMR gives him the creeps and makes him want to cry -- or sudden movements also trigger him. In short: Hoseok is almost always anxious and panicking for different reasons, whether he’s with other people or by himself. 

[maikovich]

Dear Riley

Dear Riley,

    This is probably going to be a bunch of rambling. You know how much I like to talk. It’s really a problem, I should really stop talking so much, but I wanted to say thank you. Thank you for taking me in when I needed a place to stay and I don’t know if I ever told you, but a few months ago, my best friend left the city and I felt pretty lonely, so thank you for making me feel less lonely. You’re probably rolling your eyes at this and thinking that I’m putting too much thought into this and I probably am. And you probably don’t even consider me a friend. I’ve been told that I get too attached to people too easily, which is probably true. But because you took me in, I actually had the time to put more effort into my game and your helping me pursue my dreams, so I just wanted to let you know, that even if everything works out with my game, I’ll always help you out. I’d do anything for you, Riley.

@motyleffect

[wtfxsutton]

Dear boyfriend. Dear mother.

Dear Basil, 

  There’s so many things that I want to bring up to you, but I know actually having a discussion about it might freak you out or at least you might be closed off to me. So a letter that you’ll never see might help me sort out my feelings. I might as fucking well do this, since I have to do this for my mother anyways. I know we’ve only been dating for a month or so and these questions don’t pop up in my head because I’m some desperate asshole looking for a long-term relationship, but I have them because I don’t know what’s going on through your head. Why are you with me and more importantly what do you want from this relationship? Am I just a convenient distraction? Would hearing something like I love you, scare you? I just want know what you want in life. 

Dear mother,

    Your rehab center contacted me to write you a letter before visiting you. I want you to know that I’m not going to be easy on you because you’re suffering. I suffered plenty enough because of you. You’re a piece of shit. I hope you’re aware of that and I hope that your therapist, who I’m paying for by the way isn’t hiding this shit from you in order to protect your feelings. You’ve never protected me a day in your life but I’ve constantly watched over you, like you were the child, so I think you should finally take this like the adult you are. I’m done being your punching bag whenever you feel sad or insecure. I’m done with you blaming everyone for your constant abuse of the people around you. I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again. This is my last time I’m sending you to rehab. If you fall back into addiction, you’re on your own. It’s not because I don’t love you. You know I do, which is why you take advantage of me. And if you love me, if you care for me at all, from this day on, you’ll treat me better. You’ll give me hugs, you’ll say your proud of me, you’ll thank me when I do something nice, and you’ll say you love me, like a mother should. 

[anderslarsson-blog1]

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☢ to learn about my character’s phobiasAnders’ biggest fear is failure, no doubt about it. The idea alone of not succeeding makes him feel sick to his stomach. This is perhaps why he’s so driven to succeed, the fear of failure is enough of a motivator that he absolutely must win, no matter what.

[scarxvega]

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While Scarlett loves looking at herself in a mirror. She hates to be surrounded by them. Such as a house of mirrors. Even certain dance studios can bother her, but as long as she’s with someone, she’s usually okay. Actually, she just hates mazes in general. 

[nikoxnowak]

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Niko has three really serious phobias: corpses, worms, and heights. The height fear only really applies to natural phenomena (like cliffs, mountains, tall trees) not if he’s up in a building or a plane or anything man-made. His second worst fear is bodies which stems from his parents forcing him to go to his great grandmother’s wake as a kid. Even now at 32, he still won’t go to a funeral if he can help it. There’s no specific incident relating to worms, he just hasn’t ever been able to stomach the sight of them, it makes his skin crawl.

[charlotte-markovitz-blog]

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Charlotte’s biggest phobia or fear is failure. She wants to make her family proud and doing anything less than perfect means that she failed in some way.