#kingdom.chronicles

[rksohee]

smile for the camera ;

sohee was a little disappointed to know that her hair wasn’t changing for their debut. her black hair was nice (and incredibly healthy, mind you) but she was hoping to at least get a cool colour. though it seemed obvious that they weren’t getting experimental with colours just yet as the lightest any girl got was a shade of brown. the black hair in the end suited sohee more than brown hair. maybe it was meant to give her a darker look.

besides she liked her long hair. so it wasn’t a bad thing. it would pop up nicely against the white background they were being given for the photoshoot. this was more her element. sohee felt brighter. after doing so many choreographies she really needed a break. the photoshoot was perfect.

“i really missed modelling,” she says with a smile, watching others take their photos before them. “honestly it’s so relaxing to me now that it’s been a while since i left my mother’s agency. this is really my thing.” there’s no way she can really excel at modelling because at the end of the day, all of them were getting pretty pictures no matter what. but it was nice to not worry about sucking. this was something she could do in her sleep. “are you excited?” she asked with a smile, her fingers playing with vanessa’s still-brown hair. “or did you wish they changed your hair too?”

@rkness

[rkahnso]

self care ;

it’s a few days into the month and sohee is fucking sick. her voice is mostly scratchy and she can barely speak above a whisper. the girls had been catching on with how she’s worn her face mask every day and just progressively got worse as time went on. still, she refuses to take a sick day. this month seemed like the worst month to get sick -- especially when they added another girl who had just got boarded onto the company.

sohee wasn’t a mean person but she was getting real tired of last minute competition.

the stress was wearing her body down easily. on top of that, she was in a group with vanessa (awkward) and they had harmonising high notes (lovely) at certain points of the song. so not only does she have to practise with ness, but she can’t even do that because she’s too sick to. in her stubbornness, sohee refuses to admit defeat.

“i’ll try my best today,” she tells vanessa with the best of her ability. she’s quiet but the face mask muffles her farther. you have to listen closely to hear sohee’s words. her voice is hoarse. “it’s getting harder to sing lately.”

@rkness​

[rksohee]

toy box ;

APRIL 11TH - filming

filming for a music video had been a lot more complicated than sohee expected. it was nothing like the you got nerve music video. they had only done a few quick scenes. this was an entire video -- their video -- from start to finish. they got breaks when another girl was filming. and it’s not like they had days to film this. they had a single day to do it. so if it meant staying after 7pm, sohee was sure they’d keep them just to get the shot they wanted.

today they were doing “box scenes”. sohee wasn’t sure what they meant by that upon her arrival. even the explanation of “being inside a literal box” didn’t really connect with her until they were shown the set. the girls had no idea what the final product was going to look like. sohee kind of assumed they were doing box scenes like ariana grande’s focus came out to be. but instead of it being tasteful silhouettes, it turned out to be them straight up in the box with their limbs strewn about.

sohee watched the first girl with mild interest. “that seems to be uncomfortable,” she noted, eyeing the way her legs were bent at the knee to fit into the box. “especially if you’re taller. i’ve never been happier that i’m shorter.”

@rkness

[rksohee]

step it up ;

“ah...” sohee pouted at her reflection in the mirror. she wasn’t accustomed to dressing like this. it wasn’t her style in particular (she was more high fashion than super casual street fashion like this). her midriff was exposed but it wasn’t like it showed the abs that she had finally gotten from the gym workouts. it seemed like a waste but she knows the modesty was for the sake of the promotional video. the outfit wasn’t terrible (thankfully) so sohee didn’t have many negative comments about it.

she turned to yubin, who was looking good in her own outfit for the choreography video. “unnie look i got pigtails!” sohee says with a bright smile. her fingers wrap around both tied locks of hair and swings it about to prove her point. “i wish the shirt fit a but differently but i like this outfit. i just don’t wear stuff like this a lot.” she was mostly musing out loud but yubin’s opinion would be beneficial for her in return. she wasn’t the type to dress like this ever. she hoped it wasn’t obvious that she was out of her element.

“are you excited? are you ready? it’s the first official filming!” although it wasn’t for their music video itself, it was for their teaser. that was just as good because this content was being released sooner. “it seems to be happening all at once.”

@yubinrk

[rksohee]

if you will ;

moving. for some reason she never processed the fact that she would have to give up her really nice apartment and move in to dorms. she had to start giving stuff away, selling it or straight up putting it in storage. her grandmother offered to keep a bunch of her stuff in her old childhood room. so a lot of her personal effects that mattered more to her than her coffee table, she would end up keeping. and her clothes. there was no way sohee was ever parting with a special edition 2009 gucci dress among other things. her more pricier clothing was to stay back. she would bring her more-normal clothes with her to the dorm.

then came dorm assignments. they were allowed to pick their roommates which came as another surprise to sohee. while she was friends with everyone in the group, there was only one person she really wanted to dorm with. the one person who, out of all the girls, she wouldn’t mind spending every night and morning with. though she knows they won’t be sharing beds (or she hopes, at least),

she’s going over her itinerary: things still left over to be packed, which is going to storage or her grandmothers house or to be sold. maybe this would be easier to organise if she knew officially who her dorm mate was going to be. so she steals a few glances over at vanessa, a little nervous. their relationship has definitely improved since the lineup was announced. they were no longer officially pitted against each other for a spot. but would vanessa want to be her dorm mate is the question.

“hey, uh, unnie?” sohee calls timidly, tucking her hair behind her ear. her teeth rake across her bottom lip nervously. “can you come here for a second? i need to ask you something important.”

@rkness

[rksohee]

first things first ;

from the packet they received with rough line distributions, sohee noticed immediately that she and vanessa were competing for the same lines. whomever between the two of them did better in certain places would end up with that part. it made her feel nervous because once again, she and ness were pitted up against one another in some way. although that’s to be expected, of course, when they’re both main vocalists.

on the flip side she noticed that she and doyeon had a lot of complimentary parts. doyeon’s potential lines were either right before or right after sohee’s or they overlapped in a way. it got sohee thinking that maybe practising with doyeon would establish this rhythm so they’d have a good flow. of course sohee knew she wasn’t going to get every single line listed but there were a few that she hoped she did get.

“hey doyeonnie!” sohee greets with a smile. she’s been a bit chipper since the news dropped and it didn’t seem like a fake out. she really was in the group and despite the jab at her dancing still, sohee had a spot. there was nothing more that hayoon could do to break her spirits. since then sohee has felt lighter and happier. it’s definitely shown on her face and how she carries herself. “want to practise the song together? i saw that we have a lot of parts right after one another so maybe it’ll give us a good flow before we officially record!”

@rkdoyexn

[rkahnso]

sick day ;

it’s been awfully chilly lately. though the sun is out, sohee can’t feel its warmth. it makes her a little sad how the chill seems to seep into her bones. it lingers that way, settles and stays until she crosses the threshold of the trc building. then its heaters warm her from the inside and she feels good again.

one morning that doesn’t happen. she still feels that deep chill long after she’s been in the building. it lingers with her all day. when she starts to train, the chill turns into heat and into fatigue. her muscles ache. the next morning it gets worse but its now accompanies by headaches. her body is aching and feels weak but she can’t stop. it’s the beginning of the month. the cycle has started anew.

a couple of days after this has started sohee comes to training with a face mask on. she knows she’s sick but she also knows she can’t afford to take sick days. especially not when she was getting reamed by hayoon for not improving. staying home won’t help her improve by any means.

stressing over it doesn’t help her health improve. she waddles into the building slowly. she’s taking her time. walking any faster wears her and she needs to conserve any energy she could. anyone with two eyes could see how sickly she seems. it was like the light that was ahn sohee was turned down until it was dim. sohee just didn’t have the cheeriness about her now. she was dull and stressed. she just didn’t have the energy anymore.

@rkdoyexn

[rksohee]

natural selection ;

the trc girl group evaluations were winding down to an end. this meant that very soon they were going to know who was in the final lineup for the group. sohee still wasn’t a confirmed member and with the way her evaluations had gone so negatively, she’s more confident that she isn’t going to make it as a member of the group. for now, sohee needed to execute some damage control.

she invites doyeon out to eat. so after practise lets out sunday, they drive to a nice restaurant. it’s cozy and sohee knows they offer the best rice dumplings here. it was nice to treat themselves. they’ve suffered through a lot these last few months. it was almost over. beside the owner’s son knew sohee from when she used to work as a hostess then waiter at a different location. he was kind enough to give them a more private area.

“i wanted to talk about something serious,” sohee said with a slight frown on her face. she took a sip of the kimchi soondubu jjigae she ordered. it was spicy and warm. it heated her body up immediately. “it’s about the new girl group. i know things have been difficult and i’m proud you were confirmed...” sohee was sure to put it out there first because she doesn’t want doyeon thinking she’s bitter or jealous. “i just...you know-- no matter what, always be proud of yourself for making it and ensuring your spot, okay? no matter what happens.”

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