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Reese hadn’t been here in- well.. Since before. Even the smell though, got under her skin. Stroked her soul as a man might stroke her thighs to get her to open up- to give in. Everything within her was at war with something else. She wanted to turn around, run, and not look back. Yet, she wanted to be able to say it was fine, that she didn’t need help because it wasn’t a problem. If she wasn’t an alcoholic she’d be able to walk into a bar and not feel a thing, right? Besides, she needed a job, and this was the only place she could even get an interview. Besides the offer Rhett had made her, but she had her doubts on how serious that was. Whatever. Point was. This should be fine. She didn’t have a problem, and she needed this job.
Stepping over the threshold, she addressed the first staff member she saw- wanting to avoid the actual bar if she could. Ha. The universe was a bitch- the staff member told her to take a seat at the bar and the manager would be out soon. Breathing out, Reese took a seat, tentative. This was fine. No big deal. The smell of stale bear wasn’t having a visceral effect on her scenes, and she couldn’t feel her body screaming at her from all angles. Reese! Long time no see! A bartender she knew she’d slept with a few times was greeting her, and all she could do was nod vaguely in greeting, her expression tight. The usual? And before she could answer, there it was. Jack on ice. Right in front of her. The condensation on the glass collecting seductively, dripping down the glass and drawing her attention to the rich, welcoming, color of the liquid.
The hair on her arms was standing up, and she could actually feel her hands itching. Jesus Christ. She wanted it. Needed it. There was so much at stake though. More than she was even willing to admit- but most importantly a bed to sleep in. She hadn’t been accepted on a scholarship yet, and as her father had frozen tuition payments, she couldn’t live in the dorms. She needed to not get kicked out. But Lord, did she want that drink. Her throat was so dry, she could barely swallow. Her hand, without her consent, was moving to close around the glass. Fingers shaking, she stopped her hand, letting it hang in mid air. Eyes unable to look away from her vice. “Fuck..”











