“My Greatest moment of intimacy, was not the evening we took all our clothes off. But it was when you first saw me at my most difficult state. / Like how you witnessed the most unloveable parts of me. As I slowly unraveled every imperfection in front of you like a scar. And despite all of this, you loved me harder anyway.” -Conee Berdera /// okay so I found this poem and it got me to thinking about how Kinkade at one point would have to see Roland at his lowest point (1/???)
(2/???) and I feel like this could possibly be after a visit with Benny or Roland going home to see his mom and he ends up running into his dad and something ends up happening. Before Roland has a chance to tell Kinkade to not come over, Kinkade catches him in the middle of a breakdown in the living room with hunk. After a while R finally calms down, H has left at this point so K can talk and cuddle his baby. For a while they both just sit in silence, (3/???) K has R bear hugged into his chest and between his legs playing with his hair. He’s not pushing R but eventually R starts to explain (cries here and there) and when he finishes K is super understanding and reassures him that this information isn’t gonna stop him from loving R and proceeds to cuddle R all night and eventually lulls him to sleep with some momitos and forehead kisses.(4/4) H comes back to the apartment after class/work and finds them both asleep on the couch and does a tiny ass squeal, puts a blanket on them, takes a picture and sends it to the group chat (b/c we all know it exists) and everyone proceeds to explode with happiness for Roland. (Praying to tumblr gods this doesn’t get eaten)
This reminds me of this line in Back to December like, "and how you held me in your arms that September night, the first time you ever saw me cry."
And just. Yeah. I imagine him explaining all the ways he fucked up with Keith and how hes scared to do that to someone else and Kinkade just. Ahhh idek but. Ahhhh
