Round two tonight. At least this time I didn’t take my ADHD meds in the ‘normal person’ morning and then take a second dose at 0200 🥲 that 60mg at 0200, 2L water and 2 coffees had me on LOCK.
Work has an ice-cream van in today so very jealous of my dayshift peeps but I finished shift to a big hug from a fellow intern 🫶
Personally, I like night shifts. It’s just a different tone. Day shift is hard. Night shift is hard but day shift just has so many judgy eyes and my tolerance is not all that 🤭 I’m too confrontational for management 😅
(Yup this is a repost to add the audio. Feel like I’ve been slacking on the audios but the quality has been ass so I haven’t been happy posting any of em)
I did ask if I could do the four available night shifts but management declined so just two for me. Kinda sucks but 🤷♀️
More details/run down below if interested <3
I dunno what it is, I seem to function in work and fall apart between shifts. Apparently my fussy wee heart doesn’t like resting (especially not lying down for some reason).
I am kinda getting a pain in the ass with the dizziness tho. Have had a couple episodes in work and at home where the closest I could describe it is MAYBE pre-syncope? Like not diagnosing myself obviously but I do get a couple different variations.
I either go all internal. Very strange. Stand up or whatever and everything goes 0.25x. Slow, sludgy, thudding feeling pulse. Ears ringing. Mouth slack. Eyes fixed. But not zoned out. Like I’m in my head 100% and my body has just clocked out. Otherwise I’ve had pretty often occurrences (like once a shift) of actually feeling so faint/hot/no bueno I have to sit down right there and then.
At home I’ve had a couple where I’ve stood too quick (particularly after sleeping), gone very ‘uh oh’, laid down and then had this weird stuff happen. Like my hands will sort of jerk? Not tremoring or shaking like actual sudden jerks. My jaw chatters like shivering but I’m not cold at all and my head sort of does mini-shaking, backwards like up and down. My eyes will sort of ‘get stuck’ to the top left of my vision and flutter.
Honestly? Pretty bloody scary. But I can’t really do anything about it so my routine now is kinda just work shifts and sleep 16+ hours on days between 🤷♀️
(Yes the BP and recording are from yesterday. Today my BP does not want to measure. I just keep getting errors and the eventual reading I got was 89/42 94bpm but I don’t even know if that’s accurate because it took so many tries)
Was an okay shift. 18 degrees compared to the 26-28C range we’ve had since Tuesday so definitely thought HR and BP might sort themselves out a bit 🤷♀️
Tomorrow seems like it’ll be a tough one based on how things were when I was leaving tonight. We’ll see 🥱
Hmmm. I feel like I’m doing something wrong with these readings. Like I’m doing everything I know to do.
Resting for a couple minutes. Sat with back supported. Feet flat on the ground. Cuff snug. Same arm (mostly, apart from that one right arm reading out of curiosity). Arm supported so the cuff is heart level. No talking. Relaxed.
But the readings just seem wrong. I dunno. Like there have been a couple completely weird readings (aside from the constant errors the other day). Had a 74/43 with 86bpm (I was dizzy tbf) but yeah, I dunno.
Does the pattern of readings make sense? I’m so used to work and the EWS system that if I got some of these on a patient, I’d be bleeping the intern lol. Maybe I just have work brain :)
