Thank you for everything you've done for me—for always being there for me when I need you, for helping me when I'm sick, for taking care of me. Thank you for being the love of my life, I sincerely don't know what I would do without you. You're my best friend, my partner, my soul mate. It's hard to believe that we've been together for over fifteen years. You've put up with me through all of my worst years and stood by my side even when you deserved so much better. I hope that I can continue to make you happy, and that we'll keep getting old together because you're the best thing that's ever happened to me. Happy birthday, babe. I love you so much. Sandbox love never dies.
Please go wish @kiselovesaomine a happy birthday!!! <3
I won’t be able to go into this as extensively as I would like to since I’m still having vision problems but I wanted to let you guys know the basics of what’s going on. I have to be watched due to my PFO and the severity of my migraines. When I have a migraine, I have stroke-like symptoms. They’re always the same so I know what they’re going to entail, however, a few days ago I started to experience something different. I have bright flashing lights, sort of like a white flickering strobe light in the corner of my left eye. I’ve had it for three days now and I was concerned enough about it being something new that I decided to go get it looked at. I went to our local clinic but they sent me to the hospital because they were concerned about a retinal tear. The hospital doctor feels pretty confident that I don’t have a tear and that my eye itself is okay. He also went over my brain scans and blood vessel tests from just last year and he doesn’t seemed concerned about my head either. They diagnosed me as having a possible optical migraine. They don’t really know what’s going on. If it continues I’ll have to go back in. They suggested that I go see an opthamologist but that’s not something I can afford as it’s not covered by my insurance. I’m a little concerned because the left side of my body has been really out of whack these past few weeks but I know that I’ll get through it. At least, I hope so. I have so much going on with my body lately that I feel like I can’t keep up with it. Thank you all for you love and support. You’re super sweet. I’m going to post the messages I received below with my responses (under the cut). <3
kiselovesaomine said: I love you forever. ❤️🧡💛💙💜💖
I love you too, baby. Always.
eleganblack said: What? You’re better now, right? Whatever happened, please get some rest now, it seems like you need it! Hope you feel better soon! ❤️
Thank you, Alice. I really do. I’m having a pretty hard time dealing with all of this right now. I like to think that I’m a strong person but I’m starting to reach my limit here.
okasamersie said: Oh goodness! I'm so happy that you're okay! Get lots of rest and we'll be here!
Thanks, Mers! I’m going to! <3
scribblybubbles said: I hope you feel better soon and things start getting better! ❤️
Thank you much, sweets. I hope so too.
tubsi-tubs said: I hope you feel better soon 😊
Thanks, Tubsi! I appreciate it! Also, thank you for showing your support. I see you on my blog. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
Anonymous said: Hope you start feeling better soon! Much love, and don't stress yourself out!
Thanks, love! I’ll try my best not to! <3
Anonymous said: oh gosh i hope you're okay!!!! 💕💕💕💕💕
kiselovesaomine replied: As someone who has known and been with Kai for many years now, I can say with all sincerity that they are NOT in the least bit racist. Fiction is fiction, not reality. There is a large, gaping difference. It saddens me to see that it’s coming to the point where there can no longer be a distinction before someone gets upset. I fear that one day, writers will no longer be able to write anything without getting backlash under the assumption that FICTION must be what the author feels.
Thank you, baby. I’m acknowledging this post not just because I’m grateful for your love and support but because I think there’s something to be said about the truth in your statement.
I was really worried that when I first started this blog I was going to be hated. I knew that I wanted to write darker content but as things have happened in the past, I’ve been called a creep, a freak, fucked up, among many other cruel labels. These are issues that those who write lighter content don’t have to deal with. I knew that I was taking a risk when I started this blog but I really wanted to offer darker content to those who, like myself, prefer it to the more vanilla works out there. It’s harder to find disturbing/dark stories in the anime community that deal with corrupt and immoral issues. I knew that the smut would likely be safe as long as it didn’t get too dark (which it has in some of my stories). However, I am nothing like the characters I write in these stories. Do I find terrible people attractive? Yes. Would I condone their behavior? No. Would I ever be with those people and support them in actuality? Hell no. I can separate fiction from reality and if I’m writing someone in character, that doesn’t mean that I support what they’re doing. In this case, the point is that the character saying hurtful things enjoys it. His words and actions reflect his beliefs. Not mine. For me, most often, I’m expressing how ignorant a character is by using such deplorable language or callous expressive behaviors. I think racism is unacceptable. It’s narrow-minded and hateful among a list of many other things. I am acknowledging the struggle in that situation by putting Izuki in a horrible situation. It shapes the world he’s living in at that moment. It invokes fear and hatred and makes the story more visceral by keeping Nash in character. I do, too, worry that there might come a day when all artists are going to suffer from this backlash. As a general rule, it’s better to learn about and understand who a person really is before assuming that the character(s) they’re writing about are a reflection of themselves.
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Nicknames: Kai
Gender: Unicorn
Star sign: Sagittarius
Height: 170 cm (5′7″)
Time: 4:04 PM
Birthday: December 6th
Favourite bands/artists: I have wayyyy too many to list. Some of my favorites are: Nine Inch Nails, Leonard Cohen, The White Buffalo, The Rigs, Highly Suspect, and Avenged Sevenfold.
Song stuck in my head: Broken Bones by CRX
Last movie I watched: Concussion
Last TV show I watched: Sons of Anarchy
What do I post: Smut. A whole lot of smut. Anime/manga scenarios, imagines, and headcanons.
Do I get asks: I do but I'm shamefully slow to respond.
Url meaning: I think it's pretty self-explanatory. Dark and Dirty Kibbles 'n Bits.
Average hours of sleep: It depends on how I'm feeling. If I'm having a flare-up then sometimes 2 hours (pain), and other times 10 hours (fatigue).
