2017 is the year Iām gonna pull myself together and do the things I always wanted to do. Iām going to apply to go back to school this year, whether I get into a semester this year or next would depend on my options. Earlier the better.Ā
Iām going to figure out a schedule and work on my book (I got really excited talking about it to Serein who was so kind and sweet and let me ramble and all the compliments thank you so much honey <3). I want to, I really want to, finish it this year. If I donāt, but I make at least more than 30,000 word progress, Iāll take it, but the goal is to complete this first one. And then edit it, and reformat it. Try to find a publisher, but if I canāt find one I like Iāll probably self-publish it. Fuck, maybe Iāll be one of those laptop folk at Starbucks or something if it helps my focus.Ā āthe chick with the computer is back at it again with her corner.ā
If I get into school sooner than later, Iām probably going to do the boobs to the wallĀ āIām getting a 4 year degree in 2ā³ because itās possible there. When I have it Iāll consider my options with it, ideally Iād like to work in the gaming industry as a creative writer, but Iād be just as happy to work for a teaching license and teach Creative Writing, or anything else. I... regret being unable to stay in the schools in the past because of my mental health. I know if I stayed, though, it wouldāve been more destructive for me than productive, I just wish I... I didnāt have breakdowns and the level of depression I did (I was told I should drop out by a couple on campus counselors and therapists, and that if I didnāt, they were considering that I should stay in the on campus hospital until I could stabilize myself. Thatās really why I dropped out, the suggestion actually really scared me).Ā
And if I go back to this particular school, Iāll have an on campus apartment. Which will probably be helpful to have my own space, to make my own meals (Ok Ok Iām not a good cook, my last thing caught on fire, but it makes good practice and anything is better than the shit I ate at UCDāsĀ ācafeteria.ā Part of my renewed cooking motivation may or may not be because Iād love to actually be able to cook dinner and stuff if Serein was able to come over at some point, and actually be proud of it and not likeĀ āItās kinda black I can like, buy pizza ._.;;;;ā)
This is a personal blog post, so I am going to say Serein is a massive source of motivation, support and confidence. I feel like this is completely within reach for me to accomplish because of the help, support and everything she gives me. And I also want to help her anyway I can and I think that this would be a great place to start (and itād help me a lot, but... I never had motivation to do things just for me). I really want to continue just like, saying how amazing sheās been and how amazing I feel and everything but Iād need like another entire post for that. Ā Itās just been incredible, for lack of any better word.Ā
I just hope all the shit I wished on over the years decides to smile upon me because Iām gonna need all the luck I can get. (Well I mean, at least one wish kinda actually worked so hereās hoping).Ā
