#kit thinks

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Get To Know Me Meme

i was tagged by @quickfirelivewire - thank you hun!

Nickname: My name is Kit, but given my standard handle is Bluebottle762 a lot of people call me Blue

Gender: I use he/him pronouns. There is a question mark over if I’m solidly a trans guy or if i’m some flavour of NB, but i’m a he/him all the same.

Star Sign: Leo

Height: 5’3′’

Sexuality: Bisexual, but man, real-life cis-dudes gotta be something extra special to get me to notice.

Hogwarts House: I’m a solid Ravenclaw

Favourites Animals: Chambered Nautilus!! and whale sharks. I’m also a big cat and rabbit person.

Average Hours of Sleep: uhh somewhere between 5-7? maybe sometimes 8. any more than that usually means i’ve had some kind of nightmare or something similar is up/wrong.

Dogs or Cats?: cats, personally. I love dogs a whole lot, but I’m definitely more of a cat person

Number of Blankets: just the one, but it’s usually a duvet, rather than a blanket. 

Where I’m From: unfortunately, England

Dream Trip: I want to go back to Iceland so very badly ;;

When I Created This Account: oh fuck I can’t remember. I think this one was from 2012?? I just got on this hell site in like 2010 but that was a different account

Why I Created This Account: uhhhhh I think this one was just because I wanted a personal? Or was this an rp blog originally??? I DON’T REMEMBER

Followers: 278

Rules: Tag 20 followers you would like to get to know better

I have no idea who has done this -- I’M late to it as is! if you feel like killing time and wanna do this, consider yourself tagged, and tag me so I can see! <3

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10 favorites

10 favorite characters from 10 different fandoms:

Ignis Scientia - Final Fantasy XV 

Dorian Pavus - Dragon Age Inquisition

Number 8/Sharon ‘Boomer’ Valerii - Battlestar Galactica

Zexion/Ienzo - Kingdom Hearts

Billie Lurk - Dishonored

Asuka Langley - Neon Genesis Evangelion

Ganon - Legend of Zelda (I CAN EXPLAIN)

Ace - (Classic) Doctor Who

Reiner Braun - Attack on Titan

Lance - Voltron Legendary Defender

I’m hopping on this after both @stopmopingstarthoping and @aliatori left an open invitation to do so! feel free to pick it up from me as well <3

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Today is a day where I can’t even sit comfortably. My back is cramping and uncomfortable and in pain no matter how I sit or stand or lie. all my joints feel like they’re being compressed no matter what I do. My skin feels like there’s something underneath it all the time. 

My dysphoria is all consuming- I can’t dress right, I can’t feel right, there’s no way around it, it’s just suffocating self disgust. 

There’s no fucking day light, and this house feels like a shrinking shell. My room feels like a bomb site that clings to you like mud, my kitchen feels claustrophobic- there’s no room to move or do anything or space left to store things in. The whole place is hellish and constrictive and all I ever fucking experience. 

and above all else the world is fucking silent on me. It’s all gone into stasis, nothing is happening, no one seems to exist any more, i’m just stuck here in my mire without so much as lights to look up at and it’s all silent. oppressive fucking anti-noise. It feels like a physical pressure in my ears and down my spine and I want to fucking scream but it’s pointless.

I can’t focus, I can’t work, I can’t produce. I can’t fucking enjoy anything.

scrap the whole thing, start over. this one’s fucked.

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I am back on form.

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The only good thing about being an hourglass shape is that my cat can fit herself perfectly into the curve of my waist if she curls up against my side.

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“It’s okay, you got a solid 2k down yesterday you can go a little slower today. If you do get the first chapter of Howl done then you can shift it to edit and not have to worry about any more writing. You’re still not 100%, take it easy”

[puts some music on to chill out] ............................ oh so that’s another gladnis fic idea.

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In other news I don’t know what ffxv fic to focus on. ‘Doppelganger’ which is Prompto focused and uh.. speaks for itself more or less, or working title ‘Lumaris’ which is.... Prompto focused, world of ruin time period and romance based (Promptis? Sort of? Noct is on his cry island so not really I guess).

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Me: Oh, huh. I only have one Explicit fic on my AO3. Boyfriend: You know what that means- Me: Do I? Boyfriend: Fix It.