tags/warnings: mentions of ocd, depression, and self harm (with cigarettes) dddne!
wc: approx. 600 words, not proofread sorry for any mistakes!! || headcanons
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✦︎ Going back to almost regular routine was surprisingly easier than Kit thought it would be; he's much more resilient and flexible than he takes himself for.
✦︎ But of course not all of it is gonna be easy because there's an underlying paranoia that Kit can feel in his gut very often like something bad might happen.
✦︎ Kit doesn't really have many friends although he's a friendly person. Before the asylum, he tried to keep a small group and after he made it even smaller, Lana being one of the few people that Kit truly trusts.
✦︎ He exhibits OCD-like behaviors due to all the traumatic events that happened from right before being taken to the asylum all the way to getting out.
✦︎ He double checks everything at night like if the house is completely locked, if all the windows are covered, and needs to absolutely make sure of it right before he goes to bed because if he doesn't he starts to worry way too much. On a particularly bad night, he'd triple or maybe even quadruple check.
✦︎ This is especially due to the fact that he doesn't want the aliens to come back again out of the blue, so if he doesn't do any sort of checking and taking security measures he starts to get paranoid. Deep down he knows that doing all that probably won't stop the aliens if they do come back but it eases his anxiety-inducing thoughts.
✦︎ Kit being impulsed to do that loses sleep and ends up being an insomniac. His sleep schedule is really messed up. The lack of sleep worsens the OCD and onsets his depression.
✦︎ His depression was something that came slowly and he didn't notice until it was affecting him until it got bad. Kit, who already smoked cigarettes before, would chronically smoke and sometimes he'd even burn himself just to feel something.
✦︎ Most of his burns are on his forearm so he can easily cover it with a long sleeved top but some end up on his thighs; when he smokes at night his legs are easily accessible to burn since he only wears underwear and a top to bed.
✦︎ He also has major issues with flickering lights and this becomes a major problem during thunderstorms or hurricanes. Kit doesn't mind the thunder and the rain, he actually really likes rainy weather, but when the lights start flickering he cannot for the life of him stop worrying.
✦︎ Kit forces himself to put on a brave face for his kids though, even if he's overly alert. He tries not to worry Julia and Thomas with his behaviors so he tries to tone it down when he's near either of them.
✦︎ Sometimes Kit will put music on to distract himself from the impulses and the thoughts that cloud his mind, it's one of the only things that actually helps him from getting too paranoid and worrisome.
✦︎ Despite his OCD-like behaviors, Kit doesn't have issues with it in other regards of his life like running errands or going out with a friend. It mostly only worries him during night when it's so quiet that he starts to overthink.
✦︎ Kit is very determined to move on from the past as he wants to feel like he can breathe without being suffocated by all the things that happened to him. He's still struggling a lot but he's trying, making progress in small bits. Kit will not let anything stop him from trying to get better and be a better person.
