Started talking with my ex yesterday, hes the father of my 2 year old and he meant the absolute world to me. And he still does apparently. The ‘flame’ that was burning out when he left me for another woman, turned into a fire of rage and jealousy and I’ve held onto him over all this time we’ve been apart. As soon as I heard he was contacting people to try and get a hold of me, I won’t lie, I felt such an inner excitement but also a fear..I decided to reactivate my social media account and contact him, telling him that I forgave him, but most importantly, that he needed to be in his daughters life. She’s only 2, but she remembers him very well, his voice, his face, she missed him too..He was shocked, I was expecting him ask to sign over his rights to her, but no, he said he was happy I was willing to get back into contact with him, little did he know I wanted more than that, I wanted to give ‘us’ another chance, I missed him dearly. I told him, I told him I still loved him and that I was sorry if I hurt him or pushed him away, he said he felt terrible for what he did, and that he never thought I’d take him back. I never thought I would either, but dammit, I can’t not love him, he’s my backbone, my daughter is my world, and he helped me become the good mother I am today. He has made his mark on my life and I’ve tried turning the page and moving on, but he’s there every step of the way, in peoples faces, attitudes, I saw him everywhere, moving on was impossible. He wants to prove himself before we rush back into things, but that he does still love me, and we’re I suppose officially working through it. He seems to have changed, he’s the man I fell in love with when we first met, not the cold, sex addicted, workaholic he used to be. I really wanted to give ‘us’ another chance even more. I hope he does too. We currently live in different provinces, but if things work out, he’d move here in the summer. Pointless fact but I cant get it out of my head, his best friend is a girl who is having relationship problems on her end too, I can’t help but feel childishly jealous when he says he stays at her house sometimes. I just..I dunno. I have to trust him though, I have to try... I’ve invited him to come out here for our daughters birthday in February. He’s supposed to book a bus ticket sometime soon, I’m hoping this brings us back together. I just want to be a family again...