#kjdiary

[idkhowimstillhere]

1/29

funny how in my immense feelings of loneliness, the only thing i want to do is isolate myself from people

[idkhowimstillhere]

1/28

i’m really feeling the imposter syndrome this week (:

not being as involved in club activities as my friend is is making me feel like i’m not doing nearly enough for good career opportunities in the future. i hate growing up

[idkhowimstillhere]

1/25

having been back home from uni for 3 weeks lingers than i was supposed to die to COVID, i feel myself reverting back to the incredibly angry middle school i was all those years ago.

my instinctual reaction to everything is anger now and i don’t know why. i just want a breather but nothing in this household allows for that.

[idkhowimstillhere]

LMFAO nvm

1/25

i’ve been struggling with a weird mental state for a while and COVID has made it worse. my father’s test results came out positive, a little over a year since he landed in the hospital and i’ve been this fucking anxious mess.

im still not over the fact i almost lost him and i don’t know how long it’ll be until i am. i just want to be able to tell someone in my life without feeling like a burden.

god this is so … i feel pathetic when i let myself get overwhelmed by my emotions. i need to get myself a therapist lmfao