May 1, 2018
Positivity Day 1047
1. I packed some more for my trip. I almost have all my clothes picked out.
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Positivity Day 1047
1. I packed some more for my trip. I almost have all my clothes picked out.
Positivity Day 1046
1. Went to church for the last time before I go on my trip. Its good to see everyone before I go.
2. I went shopping with my mom for some final trip stuff and I picked up a couple more shirts to wear out there.
3. I stayed at home after all that and took some time to do some sewing while finishing up the “Violet Evergarden” anime on Netflix. It was nice to do my hobby after focusing on exams for the past couple weeks.
Positivity Day 1045
1. I have officially completed my third year of university! I wrote my last exam this morning and I feel much relief.
2. Miu picked me up from school and we went shopping for some good walking shoes for me to take on my trip.
3. My parents took me out for dinner to celebrate my completion of third year. We went to have Japanese food.
4. I also made myself a circle skirt! It’s the first time that I’ve sewn something that I could actually wear.
Positivity Day 1044
1. I stayed home all day today but it was a nice time to just study and rest.
Positivity Day 1043
1. I wore a cute outfit today :) I’ve been working up the confidence to wear this shirt that I bought a while ago (like a year ago) and I chose to wear it today since the weather is finally warming up. My friend and Miu said I looked nice.
2. I also had my fellowship planning meeting today. Two of our counselors told us that they won’t be returning this year. When they told me two days ago, I felt a bit disappointed, but if that’s what they’ve decided then that’s probably for the best. Their main reason is because they’re seeing their kids less, which makes sense. When your kids are young you would want to spend time with them. I think it’ll be fine.
3. I didn’t finish all of the studying I wanted to do today but I think that’s alright. There’s still tomorrow. I can work hard.
4. One of my finals came back today (for a Japanese class I’m taking on manga and anime) and I got A+! Not only was it an A+, it was legitimately 100%. I got full marks on my essay! I was really excited since I wasn’t sure how well I did on that essay.
Positivity Day 1042
1. I stayed at home all day today. I needed to get my project done so I worked on that. I’m almost done. I just need to print and bind it and then I’m done. After that I will definitely need to read my textbook. It was good just to work and be creative.
Positivity Day 1041
1. I spent the day with Miu for the most part. We went out for lunch together and then we went to a cafe/restaurant place to meet up with a friend to study for a bit. I was productive but I probably could have done more.
2. Miu drove me home after dropping his sister off at the grocery store. It had recently snowed in my city so there was a solid layer of snow on the ground. I didn’t shovel it before we went for lunch earlier so I decided to shovel it. Miu offered to help so the two of us shoveled my driveway and cleaned it up before he left to pick up his sister. It was so nice of him to help, especially since he didn’t have to.
3. My dad came home and asked who shoveled the driveway. I told him Miu and I did it when he dropped me off. He seemed.... impressed? Or well, he gave off a positive vibe when I told him about it. “Good,” he said. My dad also inquired into Miu’s progress on his courses, which is big for me. Usually my parents like to pretend we don’t reallyyy spend time together, even though I tell them when I do. So its cool of him to ask about Miu and how he’s doing. (Though I will mention that neither of my parents dislike Miu as a person. They are just not totally on board with the idea of me and Miu.)
4. I also managed to finish writing my project tonight! its 12 pages and very very long but I think after editing I’ll be able to cut down on some of it. I’m just glad I was able to do all the writing in two days. Hopefully editing and everything will go well. This also puts me behind on my textbook reading for another final but I think I’ll make it. Just have to work hard.
5. I feel like God has been really gracious with my this whole semester. I’ve felt like I’ve been really busy and I haven’t been doing my devotions (weekly or daily) so its like I’ve been brushing off God for a long time. But rather than feel really alone and without God, as I sometimes do feel, I’m feeling okay right now. I do need to get back to God ASAP but it is a comfort knowing that I can get right back on the horse.
Positivity Day 1040
1. Sooooo the day after I posted my previous “Positivity Day” post I actually had a Japanese presentation that I thought I did really badly in. Made me really upset because I was the one that wrote the script and I felt like I let my group members down with what I had made. It also didn’t help that I found out that I got a B+ on my most recent paper (which isn’t actually a bad mark but I also hold myself to a high standard) and it affects my mark in my current English course. So Miu was very kind and picked me up from school. I started crying in the car and I felt like it was really lame to tell my special someone that I was crying over marks and disappointing people (though my group was not disappointed in me). He kept asking me what was wrong and I knew he was really concerned when he asked me in Chinese (its a thing for me, speaking in Chinese. Only use for jokes and emergencies). So I told him and he didn’t laugh, didn’t belittle my problem. Just told me that things would be alright and it wasn’t the end of the world. Eventually I was okay and I’m glad that I had Miu.
2. But I’m better now! I mean, I think I am. My mentor had been talking to me earlier about some other things related to fellowship and I’ve been trying to work on it. She was mostly talking about prayer and how important it is and how giving stuff up to God puts things in His hands. (something like that). So instead of like, meticulously planning and being in control, its praying and letting God do what His plan is (not to say that we don’t plan but just don’t buckle down everything into rigidity). So this Friday we had a Bible study and I kind of let God take His run at it. I still had to lead it but I just talked about things that came to mind that I thought were relevant. So maybe that helped, maybe it didn’t. Whooo knows.
3. I also wanted to mention something interesting. On Thursday, I had brought these packages of cookies and chocolate that I put together for my friends since finals were coming up. I wanted to give them a little token of encouragement to help them along. Unfortunately, quite a few of my friends decided not to come to school that day so I couldn’t give them the things I had made. I was kind of disappointed but I mean, its not that big of a deal. So at the end of the day I went home and on my way to the train station, there’s this homeless guy that I walk past all the time. So as usual, I walk past him and head to the station. Its at this point that I just miss the train. I walk over and see that I have to wait 12 minutes until the next train arrives so I stand there for a minute and kind of daydream. I think about the homeless guy and how you’re not supposed to give money to them because you don’t know what they’re going to do with it. It’s better to give food. And then I thought “oh yeah I should pack snacks in my bag so I can do that” and then its almost like God poked my brain to remind me because I then remembered “oh yeah, I do have snacks on me right now”. So I think about it, still have 12 minutes till my next train, and I walk back. I go back to the homeless guy and kneel down next to him and pull out as many packages that came with one hand. Turns out it was three. I offered those to him and he asked if he could really have them all and I said yes. I left him with those three packages and as I walked back to the station I saw him put the bags in his backpack. I hope he’s doing well. I just wanted to share this because usually I don’t do things like this. Usually I save those packages for my friends and don’t think of others. But that day was different and I walked back to give him those bags, for whatever reason.
Note: Pray for everyone who’s going through finals right now (including me!). I’m sure many of us are doing late nights and working hard on projects that are due soon. I just hope that people are still taking care of themselves.