Hi all,
As you all probably know by now, the kmp78 acct was unfortunately and without any warning taken down a few days ago.
Why, you may ask? 🤔
Well, that is as big of a question and mystery for me as it must be for you. I simply went to sleep on Friday as usual and woke up to a dead app on Saturday.
And on top of it all I've been on vacay and away from my computer for the past 4 days so I have been completely at sea and unable to properly even figure out what went down. Worst timing ever. 🤦🏼♀️
I got absolutely no "warning" by email from tumblr admins about anything being wrong, nor have I gotten any answers to my email asking them wtf happened.
So, I just have nothing to give you folks on that front, I'm afraid. I have some suspicions, but they are just hunches.
I will keep trying to get answers tho cos this shit pisses me off like you wouldn't believe, altho I guess if you've gotten to know me at all over these past years, you no doubt WOULD believe! 🤭
Yes, I am absolutely livid about this. I'm also completely heartbroken about it. I'm not gonna deny it. 💔
I know it was just a mundane blog about a mundane topic, but it gave me so much joy over the past 10+ years that it pains me immeasurably to lose it. 😭
And on top of that, it also pains me to lose all of the people who joined me daily to have a laugh and roll our eyes and rip out our hair over all things Mars. 🥺
I know not everyone will ever figure out what happened if they don't look around other platforms (like my kmp78 IG for example), and they may think I just clicked on delete and took off without at word.
I would NEVER do that. ⛔️
Never in a million years would I do that. ⛔️
I have always said that if and when I pack it in, it will be on MY terms and not because of some fucked up circumstances beyond my control, and most definitely not because someone says I have to. ✋️
You know me, guys.
I am that selfish and I always HAVE TO have the last word. 😂😉
Taking orders from people who don't have any kind of authority over me just ain't my jam. 🤷🏼♀️
So believe me when I say: I would never have done smthg as shitty as hitting the delete button without giving a head's up.
I know it may not have always seemed so, but I truly respected all the people who came to visit and interact with me too much to take the "coward's way out", if you will.
And from the bottom of my heart I want to thank each and every person who joined me on the kmp78 blog, whether it was from Day 1 or even just randomly or recently.
The laughs we had and the times we spent together were something I will treasure for the rest of my life. ❤️
It was crazy, but it was good. It was SO GOOD! 💯
And yes, I also know at times I was an absolute C U N T towards some of you folks (maaaybe for a reason tho hmmm...??? 🤔🙃) but even to you I extend my gratitude (and yes, my apologies. I treated some of you horribly and for that I am truly sorry. My moods are... well, you know. I have work to do on myself, I know that perfectly well. 😬).
(Side note: I'm typing this sitting on a plane and bawling my eyes out. 😭
These people must think I'm nuts... 🫣)
As for what happens now...
I have to say I have done a lot of thinking over these past few days.
Do I want to continue anymore?
Or rather do I want to start again from scratch (since that is essentially what it would be like as everything is lost)?
Or is this the day that was always coming when I walk away and close this chapter of my life?
And the answer is... I honestly don't know right now.
I feel extremely deflated atm, and like I doubt I would have much to offer anyone anymore now that the last 10+ years have been wiped out. 😣
Maybe this was the universe's sign to walk away and go live a Mars-free life. 🌌
But then again, like I said earlier, I am nothing if not infamous for wanting and needing to always have the last word. 😂🤷🏼♀️
It just does not sit well with me at all to think that someone, whoever the fuck it may have been, would make this decision for me. 🤬
Not to even mention the fact that the joy I got from keeping tabs on the Leto Circus was something I was not at all ready to give up! 🎪🤡🍿
So, with that in mind and after this looooong-ass essay pouring my broken heart out, I have decided that AT LEAST FOR NOW, I will try to continue running a Mars blog here on tumblr (as much as I hate tumblr right now 😒).
I honestly can't promise I will continue as usual tho, because as I said I am truly gutted and sad about these events and I feel like the rug has been snatched from underneath me when it comes to Mars blogging, and I just don't know if I can (or even want to) climb back up on my feet again.
But since I do want to be the one to decide when I stop, I will try and continue for the foreseeable future. 👩🏼💻
I apologize in advance if things don't work out tho. Please don't hate me for it. ❤️
I feel extremely tired atm and like my batteries are running very low. I can't predict how anything will go from now on. 🪫
But on that front: if I do manage to climb back up and keep running with the clownery like I once was (like I said, my motivation is an absolute zero right now 😞), I truly hope you folks will return and join me here.
As was the case before: without you folks interacting and bringing news and sharing thoughts, I have no reason for being here either.
YOU make the blog.
I just do the "managerial" tasks. 💯
Without you and your participation, there's is no blog. That's just a stone-cold fact. 💯
I know some people already followed this backup blog so you will be able to see this post on your feeds, but I'm sure there were plenty of others (especially those anons without tumblr accts) who had/have no idea about this blog even existing so I have a favor to ask you: please spread the word if you know of folks who might be out there wondering wtf happened to the main blog, in case they want to follow along. 📢
I'll be posting info about this blog on IG as well. The visuals/layout etc. on this blog are not great as this was never intended to be in use all that much, but maybe I'll try to spruce things up at some point. Also if you run into problems (like sending anon messages etc.), please let me know so I can try to fix them. 🛠
However, if you feel like the universe has spoken and you no longer want to venture on this "new path" with me, it's perfectly ok. I completely understand and there will be no hard feelings. ❤️
I'm not sure I want to venture either!
Anyway, thank you for reading and again thank you all so so much for the past 10+ years we shared. I feel like I did make some true connections and even friendships throughout the years, and those were AND STILL ARE very valuable to me. ❤️
You were all a major source of joy and inspiration for me, even if it may not have always seemed so. 🤗😉
K 🫶
PS. You can also reach me through the kmp78 Insta acct, as always. I may not always be able to answer quickly since I sometimes forget to check that acct daily, but it and I will still keep existing. 🙂
If not here, then I hope we will keep in touch and our paths will cross somewhere else. ❤️










