#knightwithoutarmor

[alunadiufuk]

kamu menghilang tanpa kepastian, meninggalkan janji yang kamu ingkari, juga bersumpah tanpa suara.

apa kamu pernah memikirkan perasaan dan hati yang telah ku tata dengan susah payah untukmu?

kamu jahat

lantas apa kamu pantas mendapatkan pengorbanan dariku?

[alunadiufuk]

I was wrong about you, wasn't I?

I thought you are just a negative sub-atomic particle in my atom

but you are more than that, you are the nucleus

I thought you are more than just the pressure that drives disaster on my earth

but you are more than that, you are the core

I thought you are more than just a sea of violent plasma on my light's corona

but you are more than that, you are the sun

all these years I have always thought of those first ones about you. I was wrong, wasn't I? you have always been the whole system of my universe all along

please tell me I was wrong without telling me I was wrong

I want to believe in you

[alunadiufuk]

I looked outside, but all I see was you coming into my life and walked past through me like a shadow

I looked inside, there was us hitting it under the rain, making up and out with that shitty anime sounds on the background

I looked down, you were there lifting me up with your words of affirmation and arms

I looked up, damn yeah I had to see you fly over the stupid clouds of memories

I looked anywhere and all I see is your presence, lingering as I breathe, rising and setting as the sun

I looked into my eyes, wondering if you’ll ever come back to me

Then I slowly close my heart, while contemplating between giving up the ever or never salutation for when you come to me again

[alunadiufuk]

Aku percaya kamu, lalu runtuh. Aku butuh kamu, lalu sendiri. Aku memperhatikan kamu, lalu terusir.

Lelah, begitu panjang perjalanan hatiku untuk sampai ke tempatmu, tapi lompatan jarak membelah hatimu dengan kasar. Lalu bagaimana aku bisa melangkah kembali dengan awan hujan yang menantiku keluar di depan sana?

Sedang kecup darimu menahanku untuk menjauh. Peluk hangatmu memintaku untuk tinggal, tapi tidak ada lagi siapapun yang tersisa disini. Hanya hati yang tercabik jarak dan waktu, yang menuntunku untuk menantang badai di depan sana, kembali ke peraduanku yang sunyi.

Haruskah aku percaya untuk kembali? Haruskah aku membutuhkanmu kembali? Haruskah aku memperhatikanmu kembali?

Akan kutunggu hatimu tumbuh kembali dari seberang sana. Pada saatnya nanti, jemput aku, peluk dan sayangi aku seperti dulu, dibawah langit parahyangan yang menyelimuti jiwa kita, hujan dan tanpa rahasia.

[alunadiufuk]

I thought I could be myself around you since we’ve been good friends for a decade, but when the butterfly came in, I am starting to lose myself.

[alunadiufuk]

Was I wrong?

I've known very well of your negative ways throughout the decade, yet I've always been wanting you to share those with me. I've regretted it in some ways and often cursed myself, yet I am still yearning for the likes of you to come to find me and take me to hell.

Was I wrong to wish for it all? Was I to blame for my own drifted happiness?

You and I are meant to be together. We shared our trust and hatred with each other ever since we met. Though we went our own ways and found what was supposed to be our own happily ever story, we got tricked by fate and met each other once more, to finally fall for each other.

But it seems that I am the only one with the roses. Was I wrong to wish for it all? Was I to blame for my own drifted happiness?

[taf22]

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[hisquccn]

“Lieutenant, where have you run off to? Abandoning your post is not a way towards a promotion.”

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