Let me, let me go. Life is full of lessons, sometimes they are so hard that they break your heart, only to be rebuilt like a puzzle all over again. I believe most are this way even if they seem like they change you from who you thought you were supposed to be. You have to be the one to pick up the pieces & put them back together because no one will do it for you, this I promise you. A year ago my life changed forever. I was taught a important lesson & I do not regret a single second of what it taught me. It taught me about courage and cowards. The truth about liars & thieves. That while we may not be children forever your innocence is only as lost as you are. There are a lot of people who think they know who they really are but they continue to fool themselves & the people around them. They are too weak to ever really find out who they are or to do the work to have a life with substance. I've learned that sometimes the hardest decisions are the right decisions. Sometimes it's ok not to do the seemly right things just because you're always expected to, even if you suffer because of it in order to learn something. That it the end you do not need a hero to save you from anything. That you will always be your hero. You always have a chance to make things right, however you actually have to fight for them & If you don't fight the chances are you will probably lose it pretty damn quick. That happiness is a warm gun when you're the one behind the trigger disposing of the evil zombies trying to steal your life for their own survival. I learned that real family & real friendship takes hard work, honesty, loyalty, trust, & it's not always about quantity but quality and it always has to be 50/50. It's amazing what a year can do. How much things change & how much you learn to change with them. How much you realize that time makes an impact. How time means absolutely nothing if you don't do the work to back it up & if you're not paying attention to the things that matter to you, 2 days can change everything. So today I'm letting go of everything I was deceived to believe for more than half my life. Childhood promises that pinky swear to a magical kingdom that has gone dark because that place never existed in the first place. Saying goodbye to moments in the past & leaving them there. Looking back when you've moved forward cannot make the past come to life again because things only change if you let them. Hero’s rely on fairytales to exist. Villains grow from the pain within. The first time someone shows you who they are, believe them. So be the hero. Be your own hero. Because your stronger than you think. -
