❝ i wanted to stay ahead of a bad situation. ❞ the girl she became when she was with him wasn’t the girl she was supposed to be ------ it wasn’t the girl her parents expected her to be or the girl her sister assumed she would be. she was supposed to be the girl who followed the rules and never did anything wrong; it was annie who was supposed to be the one to find herself in a situation like beth did ( or at least, it’s what they all assumed. ) she was stuck in the mindset her parents had set out for her: you can’t be this girl who is full of shame and mistakes. and that’s why she couldn’t be around anymore; she couldn’t have the people in her life know she was pregnant. even jake, who deserved to know his child. she knew it wasn’t fair. it was selfish. but she had convinced himself it was BEST for him too. now that her world was crashing down around her, she was reminded of that mistake, reminded that she had given into those high standards set out for herself rather than become her own person ----- now that she had kicked dean out of the house, she realized she didn’t have to be that person. and perhaps, she was never supposed to be that person. it was time to be who SHE wanted to be; and who she wanted to be was someone who owned up for the things she had done, starting with jake. ❝ so i left. it wasn’t right, i know that now. but i spent years convincing myself that it was for the best. ❞
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