koinochocolate replied to your post: I had to sit outside the supermarket while my dad...
Lila is A++ and so are you I’m proud of both of you
I just need my animals to live. Like, the only things I need are you, Lila, Ianto, Missi, Leirin, my mum & dad, and my friends on here.
(Sorry I'm going to turn this into a gushing post, I'm sorry you didn't sign up for this, I'll kiss you with my apologies).
I've not had the best experience with people, I've never really had any friends and I guess that's just because of my autism, I'm a very independent person but I get really lonely sometimes, and I do very much, even when I have people, I do push people away and I am quite cold sometimes.
And that's just... well, I've thought about why that is and it's took some figuring out. I guess it's just because I've had really really bad experiences with people before and no one apart from my parents have ever cared about me, and I've never understood why anyone would care about me. Like, I've been living all of my life thinking that people would never give me love or care because I'm one of them people who don't deserve it.
Anyway, things changed, and I met some of the most important people who, although I still can be cold, I love you very much and I'm trying to work on it. I'm trying to not push everyone away, and it'll take a long time but just hang on.
So I'd like to say to all of my friends on here, that you are so important to me, even if I don't say it. I honestly cannot say how amazing it is that people actually want to be my friend, because I've never had proper friends, no one really liked me.
So I couldn't live without you guy and I couldn't live without my animals, especially Lila, because she is just my best friend.
I love you guys, and if I've tagged you in here, you are someone I consider amazing and one of my friends. Even if we've only spoken a little, I am so grateful that we've spoken and it's not ended in 'you're totally annoying piss off'.