@kookie-time replied to your post “[[MOR] I honestly hate this state i’m in there’s a million things...”
there are very few people who really really do care. if everyone cared, then everyone would be the same. it's the people who /do/ care and show care that stand out to you and make you realize that they're important to you. and on the days they don't appear, yeah, it's up to you to be that person for yourself. when they do come though, you might not notice because you don't believe anyone does care.
i guess what i'm trying to say is that sometimes you do have to be the one who picks you up at the end of the day but don't close yourself off to the idea that some people really do care and will care if you just let them know you need them.
//hugs you// cry as much as u want and take all the time u need to pick yourself back up. if u want to talk, i'll listen. if not, i wish you the best of luck and hope you have a better tomorrow :)
I understand what you’re trying to say and thank you so much for this reminder, the thing is that I am aware of all these things already like I know there are people who care, what I forget is that the problem is actually with me and how I tend to push everyone away when I should be bringing them closer. I’m problematic when it comes to opening myself up to people and I have difficulty expressing my thoughts and feelings properly so I’m always scared I will be misunderstood and the person I’m talking to will end up hating me. I hate being misunderstood very VERY much so I prefer to keep my problems to myself... I understand it’s unhealthy and I have to find the strength to open up to someone... but it’s just so hard to let go of my insecurities so for now, as you said, the only person I can depend on is myself.
But honestly, thank you so much for taking the time to send me this beautiful message, you’re amazing and I won’t forget your consideration towards me <3
you know love i was tempted to just write a sad jikookdrabble--just cause but i’m not that mean--maybe i am once upon a time, there were two beautiful, beautiful boysonce upon a time, there was a prince and a jesteronce upon a time, there was jeon jungkook and park jiminand if that isn’t a fairytale all on it’s own already then i don’t know what is but this isn’t about them, it’s about youand how somehow you always seem to be able to make me laughto come online at the exact right moment when i need someonewhen i need you to hold me like you do and make me smile and make me feel likethe world isn’t as empty as it was the moment before and i trusttoo easy, but you’ve never taken advantage of that and with youi feel like i am a better person and it’s hard because i’m nota very good person to begin with and the fact that you make me better--that’s something that goes beyond just a beautiful story
my professor gave me his number today so that is just one more incentive to never ever ever ever drunk text although alcohol doesn't taste good so that's that too also there is the potential to just call him when i have a kid and be like "so you know i always semi-fell asleep in your class and my kid doesn't want to go to bed do u think u could help a girl out?"
oh my god lmaoooo how do i even reply to this :’)) good idea tho
