A touch I love about Until We Meet Again is that Dean and Pharm's memories of Korn and Inn's lives are very different and very deeply rooted in how they died.
Korn died first, and so Dean most often dreams of Inn in moments where he let him down. A day at the beach when he swore he would always be there for Inn, being a dick about Inn's cooking skills, etc.
But Pharm largely sees the moments when they were happy, inevitably all interrupted by flashes of watching Korn die. He sees that night more than anything else, Pharm even carries Inn's PTSD at the sound of the gun firing. And in this life, he is the one who has changed the most significantly. Inn learned to cook- not only that, he mastered it like he said he would.
It's just such an interesting distinction to make.
The one who left first, who threw up his hands and gave up on the man he loved- at least that seems to be how he's looking at it.
And the one who was left behind- even if it was only for a few moments. The one who was traumatized and who seems to want to be worthy of staying for.
Because Inn fell first, fell hardest, and held their world together, and Pharm is now shy, more withdrawn, the one who needs to be told that it's alright to reach out to someone. They won't leave this time.
