korraled replied to your post “I would like to sleep, but one cannot sleep all day and night...”
i worried about you in the night. There is so much I could say to you. For instance, don't be scared of meds if you need to get over a hump. Life is long and full of surprises. You want to be there for it! Please consider getting help. Worth it
I'm sorry D: I would get help if I could. Unfortunately, the healthcare system pretty much sucks and the doctor still hasn't gotten back to me after nearly a year, with attempts to contact her being to no avail (not to mention that she was pretty incompetent on the first visit and appears to be the only public psychiatrist in the city?). But thank you.