#kosukyo

[andro-dino]

sigh I miss my toxic yaoi

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from a few days ago that I just realized I forgot to post. the stupids (this is how their pre-situationship dynamic is for a while when kosuke is still just a freak ass weirdo who shows up every now and again for some reason)

[andro-dino]

came to the realization that the gradual decline of both selessi and kosukyo’s relationships are both characters in said relationships slowly coming to the realization that each person in the relationship is too stubbornly set in their ways and focused on their own goals for either of them to ever be able to meet in the middle and continue the relationship in the long term, but while selessi is a more painful, heartachey decline that leaves them both feeling unresolved and silently yearning for the other for god knows how many years, for kosukyo, it causes them to grow to hate each other and focus so much on negatives which culminates in very violent ways that leave them both hurt in monumentally different manners

[andro-dino]

real talk

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Kosuke as a character is so effing funny when they’re not horribly depressing cuz their main issues can basically be summarized as: “psh, human attachments and relationships do nothing but make you weak and fake, and unfortunately for you dweebs, I don’t partake in any of that nonsense” (is the most unhealthily codependent and attached to someone that anyone could possibly be (he has not realized this yet))

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while I am curious about all your ships. I always keep thinking about whatever the f is going on with Kosuke and Kyouya. They may not entirely count but please yap about them

Kosukyo are. Insane. I’ve joked about it before but like seriously why did I make them like that. the doomed toxic yaoi situationship ever. I think part of the thing that especially really gets me with them is that nothing about their dynamic is ever explicitly romantic, despite those feelings obviously being there. They never ever say it out loud to each other. They might vaguely acknowledge it at times but it’s like VERYYYYY vague and they refuse to let it be anything more than that. They go through so much tension and eventual frustration and heartache with each other and they never once ever confessed to each other or did anything more than really dance around each other the whole time.

I think the progression of their relationship is a bit interesting, as it does mostly start as a primarily beyblade rivalry centered dynamic, and both of them are entirely fine with that for a very long time. They both spark something in each other and are intrigued by the other as bladers enough that they’re able to have really riveting battles and have their relationship carry solely through bey battles for a good long while. There is obviously kosuke’s provocations and things that allude to the kosuke-typical desire to fist fight, but their beys do most of the talking for them for a while. Outside of beyblade, Kosuke is a big people watcher and I imagine he does end up hanging around Kyoya a bit with the general intrigue they have in Kyoya as a whole, which is what then gives way for more direct interaction and stuff. Kosuke is a total weirdo and Kyoya is very aware of that, but he can’t bring himself to really hate it. There’s something about Kosuke that draws Kyoya in and vice versa, which leads to them weirdly becoming closer. With that and the general teasing and vaguely flirty attitude Kosuke always seems to carry with him, it doesn’t take long for more to develop between them. It’s an odd song and dance and neither of them are particularly romantic, but it’s so palpable that neither of them can ignore it. Kyoya has more relationship experience between the two of them oddly enough– real relationship experience anyways– and I imagine that their relationship comes at a time when perhaps Kyoya has developed a little more as a person, has become more in tune with his own emotions a bit more, is perhaps a bit more affectionate in his own sorts of ways. I think that’s what eventually leads him to be the uncharacteristically normal one between the two of them when it comes to what he really wants from their dynamic. The thing about kosuke is that he never wants anything to change. They are fine with their and Kyoya’s relationship staying exactly where it is and drawing it out as is because he’s satisfied enough with it, and with them being such a closed off and defensive person, it’s the closest it allows itself to get before it gets too real for them and they get sent into panic mode. Kosuke likes being able to stay in control of situations and the idea of being vulnerable enough with someone to acknowledge any uncertainty he may feel terrifies and disgusts him. That’s why it puts up the defenses so much when it comes to realize how much more Kyoya wants from them.

I think at first, Kyoya is able to understand that perspective a little and is willing to allow some distance in their relationship. There’s something always at his core that feels vaguely wrong about it but he understands where Kosuke is coming from, perhaps better than most others would, really. I’ve described Kosuke as what Kyoya thinks he is, specifically like fury Kyoya there, and I think that still holds mostly true. Kyoya himself is not the type to be particularly happy about developing feelings for someone I think, so he understands why Kosuke is that way when it comes to their dynamic. Still, as other have been able to do with him, he expects to be able to grow closer with Kosuke still, and it takes some time for him to realize how truly stagnant Kosuke is and how truly unwilling they are to change. Kyoya cannot bring anything more out of him than he already has, and not being a patient person, Kyoya doesn’t stick around to let it keep happening. Kosuke in some ways was using Kyoya, in a sense. It’s true that it was genuinely interested in Kyoya and did like him as much as it could like anyone, but Kosuke wanted Kyoya to be able to stay exactly as he was with him always and to always be entertained and amused by him. Their relationship was not particularly equal and Kyoya in the end was not willing to keep it that way, which is ultimately what shatters everything for Kosuke going forward. Without his and Kyoya’s whole routine, he truly has nothing and no one else. He’s completely alone, and more importantly to him, entirely bored. It breaks Kosuke how much he is ultimately torn up about it as he is so incredibly not in control and has nothing that allows him to push aside his negativity and ignore his issues as he has usually done up to this point. They’re forced to acknowledge that they truly have no one to blame but themself and it so, so incredibly hard for them to get through that, hence the complete and utter upheaval of everything they’ve ever been.

If/when they ever meet again, they still hold some fondness for each other. Kyoya does, in some ways, want the best for kosuke but doesn’t waste any time getting wrapped up in kosuke’s whole schtick again. He’s been able to change and if Kosuke is still unwilling to, Kyoya has no willingness to spend any more time and energy on them. Kosuke is much softer in some ways but much harsher in others, as he does still have an attachment to Kyoya but also, at the point they are in their life, doesn’t bother as much trying to keep up the mysterious attitude and facade, being more openly bitey and cold when Kyoya does provoke that from them. Their reunion is not long for all those reasons, but it leaves Kosuke with a full ache nonetheless and Kyoya with a small flicker of hope which he can’t tell is misplaced or not.

[andro-dino]

kyoya “does not know when he’s being flirted with” tategami

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had a Realization when listening to this song