KOUKENAI FIC PART 2
Not that it was any fun to write that but.. will you join the Koukikoukis? Or maybe just.. come by the club room? To hang out- Fine!
Maybe like.. Alex walked in on them so close and immediately frozen in shock. His best friend, and his boyfriend? He always thought Tsu hated Sawakita, why was this happening now? What did he do to deserve this horrible sight being burned into his eyes!?
“T-Tsu?” Alex let out a soft whimper of his boyfriends name
Hearing his boyfriend’s broken and quiet voice, Tsu jumped off Kouki in an instant and began slowly proceeding toward Alex.
Tsu spoke with a commanding yet desperate voice “he- Alex, he got in my way and i had to handle him- you understand where im coming from, don’t you?”
He didn’t want to lose his sweet and fragile lover to a misunderstanding… Maybe he never should’ve got upset with kouki. Maybe he should’ve just let them be. Maybe he shouldn’t have been so jealous. Maybe he should’ve given Sawakita a change-
Tsu raised his arm to grab Alex’s shoulder, but with a quick swat Tsu realized just how upset Alex was
Tears streamed down the gentle boy’s beautiful face, unable to form a coherent thought “i thought you- i-i know you- why are you doing this..?”
Tsu’s heart stopped. He thinks he ‘knows him’?
“nobody knows me, nobody understands me. you’re just like the rest of them, aren’t you? god..how did i ever convince myself i liked you.” he huffed out his hurtful words with a chuckle
Alex sobs grew louder and worse the moment he heard that come out of his boyfriend’s mouth, he dropped to the floor in despair and crawled away like a pathetic dog, never to be seen again.
But Tsu couldn’t care less. Someone so childish and sensitive wouldn’t ever work for what Tsu needed.
“are you oka-“ Tsu stops himself. The only other person here is Sawakita. Why would he care if he’s okay? He doesn’t.
“..why would you say that to him? are you- you’re out of your mind, Oukenai.” Kouki, who has now slumped to the floor, looks up at Tsu with disbelief and anger.
How could he just toss Alex away like that? How could he have zero respect for him? There has to be-
“you did this.” Tsu slowly walks over to Kouki, speaking in a low growl “if you didn’t come to my house, if you didn’t start hanging around my friends- MY ALEX.. this wouldn’t have fucking happen. you always blame yourself for the shit that happens, and that’s always something we can agree on. you’re the cause of every single fuck up that’s ever happened. except for that time your parents didn’t use a condom, that just resulted in you, the ultimate fuck up. you constantly take shit for granted, i get you want to die bu-“
“i don’t want to die.”
Tsu goes silent, looking down at the pathetic man slumped against his wall. From this angle, He looks kind of cute.
“i didn’t realize..” Kouki speaks in a concerned but kind voice, his feelings from earlier still bubbling inside him “i never meant to take anyone away from you. i’ve ruined everything i’ve had with any of them anyways. so maybe it would’ve been better if i was never born but- that doesn’t mean i want to die. i don’t want to give up, i don’t want to pick the easiest path. i want something complicated and hard, i want-“
Their eyes meet each other, a quiet blush creeping over both of their faces, heartbeats anything but steady, thousands of thoughts flash through their minds before Tsu steps closer, then speaks.
“maybe you can have the things you want, but you have to be a good boy and work for them.” Tsu reached down and flicked His ahoge, then started to pet his hair.
Why was he being like this? why couldn’t he control his heart? His mind? Anything!? Normally, hearing Sawakita rant about all this deep stuff would give him a headache and a stomachache. But instead, Kouki Sawakita is making his stomach full of butterflies and his mind dizzy with love.
Or i don’t know something like that i guess.. it’s dumb. I don’t get why you guys like this stuff,