“She seemed worried, Alex.”
Tsu was waiting in Alex’s bed, phone in hand, a black shirt a size too big with a generic green alien head on the front sagging off one shoulder, and soft black pants over his legs which were crossed.
“Wh-huh? Did mom say something about me not eating? I just went to a cafe with Naegi, we ate there.”
Alex had just gotten home from his outing with Maeko, still flushed about the conversation they had, he was ready to avoid thinking about it till the last minute. Of course his head wouldn’t let him do that. So he had spent the walk home constructing the perfect date for Tsu. But, the more he thought about it, he felt like there was no perfect date for Tsu..At least not one he could take him on.
“I forgot to mention i was going out- It was sort of last minute so-“
“Why wouldn’t you talk to me?”
Alex’s mind goes silent, everything seems to get colder, for a moment he doesn’t think this is real. But it is.
“You and Maeko aren’t even that close..But you…you still went to him before me”
He comes back to reality, his eyes flash around the room- Manga, computer, laundry, bed, guy on bed, Tsu, Tsu’s eyes, Tsu’s mouth, oh god Tsu-
“If you’re having issues with me I-“
Tsu shifts on the bed, it almost looks like he’s shaking “You went to talk to Maeko..About something- a-a heavy topic, some issue- I- She-“ He holds up his phone, a tumblr post from Maeko is up.
“I’m not having issues with you” The truth was he was having issues about himself, his feelings for Tsu. “And it really wasn’t anything Naegi is making it out to be.”
Alex walks closer to Tsu, gently pushing the phone back into his lap as he sits next to him on the bed.
“Shit” Tsu looks away. He looks anywhere but back into those blue eyes. He needs to find a way to leave- He could say it was a joke, a dare, anything but what it really was.
“I didn’t mean it Alex I really don’t care-“
He freezes. Thats a lie. He can feel his chest burn, words aching to come out.
“It was a dumb dare. You’re obviously allowed to have problems I don’t know about, I’m not your owner or whatever.”
“Tsu” Alex places his warm hand over Tsu’s. Warmth meets ice, and Tsu feels like he can’t breathe. “It wasn’t a dare.”
How the fuck could he just say that? How the fuck could he see past it? Why couldn’t he just accept it. Why couldn’t he just ignore this. He always ignores these stupid moments- why can’t he just let go?
“You seem pretty sure of that”
He crumbles, Tsu’s eyes fall back to Alex’s. A million thoughts fly through his head, but seeing those eyes just makes everything quiet. Except their breathing.
And for a moment, that’s all it is. Slow breaths, staring, hands touching..and then it’s everything. Tsu’s thoughts regain control, but this time it isn’t loud or awful, it’s soft, it’s nice, it’s the first time he blushed because of Alex, it’s the first time that their hands brushed, it’s the first time that he smiled at him—with that stupidly charming real smile, the one he never used with the girls who flirted with him at school, it’s the first time he watched the stars with him, it’s the first time they talked about their futures and Tsu couldn’t think of a future without Alex.
Tsu can see his face flush, he knows that, but right now he couldn’t care “I’m happy. I’m happy living here, i’m happy going to school, i’m happy eating breakfast and lunch and dinner..I’m happy because I get to be with you, Tsu.”
“So no, I don’t have any issues with the guy who brought back my happiness. I don’t have any issues with the guy that showed me it was okay to laugh and smile. I don’t have any issues with the guy who has given me a chance to be better..I don’t have any issues with the guy who made me want to be better.” He blinks, registering that this is real, and so he lets his fingers curl through Tsu’s, he smiles that smile that he can never hide around Tsu, he lets himself say what his heart has been screaming “You are my home. That’s cheesy as shit, but it’s true. Sometimes I might talk to someone else about something first..but at the end of the day I am always coming back to you. And there is no one else i’d rather be with.”
Alex wraps his arms around Tsu, one hand finds itself in his hair and starts to gently twirl a strand while Alex shoves his face into Tsu’s shoulder. after a moment, Tsu hugs him back, and Alex swears he heard him sniffle..but he’s always been good at keeping secrets, what’s one more thing to not mention?
“You’re an idiot sometimes..Making me worry for no goddamn reason”
“Hey! Naegi was the one who posted that!”
