#kr rambles

[karolinarodrigueswrites]

Hey! I need more writeblrs to follow, so like or reblog this and I'll check out your blog. Boosts are appreciated.

I enjoy stories with supernatural or otherworldly/fantasy settings, horror, and some romance, though a premise can hook me even if it strays from my typical interests.

In general I am trying to find blogs with content I'd like to see and/or share daily.

I myself tend to write low fantasy with horror elements, and I've been told a wip is not my wip if there isn't polyamory in it.

Hope you guys have a nice day.

[goblins-in-a-teapot]

Why is writing so hard!!?? *throws self to ground, sobbing*

Im going to finish the first draft by this weekend, those very few of you who read Devour the Sun, keep me accountable

The rewrite is very cool and if you like the first version I hope you love this one because there is so much more love in this, much more than there was when I first started it

[kali-wants-to-read]

Currently reading:

> The dawn of everything: a new history of humanity, page 50

> Death in the Nile, page 32

> Fairies - A guide to the Celtic fair folk, page 74

I bought dawn of everything on a sale, started reading it by chance, and so far it raises interesting questions for some of my writing plans around certain wips.

Death in the Nile is the second Agatha Christie book I'm ever reading, though problaly certainly not the last since I acquired a whole collection of it.

The Fairies book is research for a wip of mine involving fairytale elements, and fairies themselves.

[karolinarodrigueswrites]

Tonight is going to be the first night I sleep completely alone without any caretaker around since I started having anxiety "convulsions" back in January (it's. A whole story)

Can I like. Get a fucking prayer and a hurrah to motivate me through the night

I'm needing affirmation and motivational words so bad but if I tell them to myself they become paranoid mantras, while the simplest external encouragement ("you can do it", "everything will be fine") carries me for miles

[karolinarodrigueswrites]

You are very tired, stressed. There are complex emotions in turmoil within you, a sense of obligation and an yearning for the things you love, the people you love.

You're scared, you feel like a farce, undeserving of the space you take by being alive, powerless ahead of obstacles that seem absolute.

It's okay to be scared, it's normal to have insecurities, it's not normal how much they might be lingering regardless of if you feed them.

Can you be kind to yourself? Can you allow yourself to rest a little more, hope even more?

What has cruelty and pressure ever built you that was worthile or lasted anyhow?

[karolinarodrigueswrites]

fake tweets for my wip, Grim Congregation, where a demon starts a ghost hunting webseries the public is told is fictional. might make more of these later.

tagging: @writeouswriter

part 2 | part 3 | part 4 | part 5

[goblins-in-a-teapot]

Mannn I wish I wasn’t so shy and anxious around making friends. I want to talk to so many people but I end up talking myself out of it because I don’t want to come off as weird. I love the outer wilds fandom so much, please be my friend *sniffle*

I’m like a feral cat that really wants attention but gets scared when there is too many people around

[karolinarodrigueswrites]

You're a computer, the battery is running low, and you can't run all programs without deteriorating the system. Burnout.exe starts shutting things down for safety, like let's call them "emotional regulation", "sensory regulation", "anxiety suppression", "constant tear down of intrusive thoughts", etc. But. "Perceive the world" and "feel things emotionally and physically" remain running at full speed and intensity. Oh, is that "react" loading? It is also set for full speed and intensity! Wait! Oh no! "React" needs at least "emotional & sensorial regulation" and "anxiety suppression" to not corrupt the whole system! Oh no! Oh no it's all coming down!