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I left tumblr for awhile cause I felt I was losing my small community on here. Now, with everything I miss my past interactions the most. I miss those times the most...I reread a lot of my posts and I have grown a lot from then. I made mistakes and said some things that make me disappointed with myself. I’m a better person now but I still miss those times. I miss him extremely. I miss everything...

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I’ve been gone

From late 2012 to late 2016 I spent all my time on tumblr. Four years I spent immersed in the kpop community on here, specifically in SHINee World. I got to interact with so many people that I grew to love and cherish in my little ways. Whether it was mutuals or fan fictions authors that I admired I spent my time here lovingly. I was also able to express myself in many ways. There was times I said things that may have offended others and I’m here now to apologize, if that ever happened. I may not have written responses but I am the type of person to keep an open mind and learn from the position of other people and from my mistakes.

In 2016 I felt a distance from my small community here on tumblr and from SHINee world. I realized I depended deeply on SHINee to be happy. I expected SHINee to act a certain way and make me feel a certain way. That’s when I realized I had to step away and open myself to other groups. As a kpop fan I’ve liked kpop for about 13 years. SHINee was the first I loved so deeply and I’m proud of every moment I spent here blogging about them. I am still a Shawol and I will forever love SHINee but over the past year I have invested myself in other fandoms. I don’t feel I’ve become any less of a fan of SHINee. I know people will think you have to be 100% invested to be a true fan but I really don’t think it has to be that way. I truly love the groups I stan. I’ve moved on from here but I have a lot of sentiment with this blog so I’ll keep it. It’s late but I guess this is like a goodbye just cause this blog will never go back to the way it was, which is a bit bittersweet.

❤️

Ktshinee

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im sorry for not posting.

i havent even been on my other blog but im gunna b since exo just released lotto

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IM SO EXCITED TO GO TO KCON THIS WEEKEND ><

get to see SHINee for the third time T.T BTS for the FIRST TIME and TTS for the 2nd ish since I saw SNSD back in 2012 and DEAN for the second time..but much farther away T.T

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I had wanted to get a SHINee lightstick for kcon at the end of this month but opted to just use the old ones I have. hopefully they dont run out of battery wen SHINee performs :P BUT i did order EXO’s new lightstick through gmarket along with their mini photocard set...sadly it had to be sent through EMS so...im broke again T.T Im bummed that I won’t get a member photocard or sync it with the app so that it lights up different colors >< but now I just need to save up cause im sure they’ll come to LA again this/next year ^^

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ATTENTION FOLLOWERS

I will no longer blog exo and bts on my ktshinee blog. If you followed me for EXO and BTS or a combo of all three please know now I will no longer be blogging all three on this one blog. I created a new blog called cutiekaisoo where I will blog mostly exo and some bts. I think for BTS I will only blog a bit of between my ktshinee and cutiekaisoo blog. Of course from time to time you will see some exo and bts on this blog BUT not as much as before. 

Please follow my new blog for EXO and some BTS ^^ thank you 

https://www.tumblr.com/blog/cutiekaisoo

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being in the kaisoo tag is cute, full of “feels”, but also scary and worrisome. some of these peeps are using scarce information to make an opinion on a person and/or matter. i adore kaisoo very much but its a bit scary to see how little things are being used to make this pairing out to be “real”or not. not saying they are or are not but lets calm down and take like 20 steps back from these two and just cool off a bit. there can be many things going on that we will never know about. i think the fun thing about shipping is that the ship we ship is happy. the drama that is stringing out is...unnecessary. 

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I read Anterograde Tomorrow...

I haven’t read fanfiction in months LIKE MAYBE CLOSE TO A YEAR T.T. Most, if not all of my favorite jongkey writers have gone away from the fanfiction world and Jongkey was the only pairing I read for. I have to really be into to the ship in order to read about it...its makes the stories more deep and beautiful. I was also so picky with my fics. They had to be well written and develop a solid plot. I knew about Anterograde Tomorrow for a while now. But I read a Kaisoo fic a few months ago and really couldn’t wrap my head around it. I wasn’t yet deep into kaisoo or even exo at the time but now I felt it was just right. I was checking out the kaisoo tag and tons of peeps made posts about reading and crying about it so I finally gave in. I knew it was sad, heartbreaking even, but never would I be prepared for the actual pain. 

By far one of the best fanfictions I have ever read. Beautifully written and unique. I suppose I haven’t read enough fanfiction to know if its really unique or one of a kind but as I’ve heard this is one of the legendary exo fanfictions. Honestly I think all fans or anyone could and would enjoy this fic...just prepare the tissues. I didn’t just cry once, at the end, but cried several times through out the story and its a three shot...not even that long T.T. I drained my laptop till like 3% battery in order to finish the fic at like 3-4am and it was worth the pain and tiredness. Even before following Exo closely I knew about Kaisoo...kinda hard when they are one of the most popular ships in the kpopworld and having kyungsoo and jongin as my top two of exo made it easy to focus on them. As of late Kaisoo fans have been through lots of ups and downs and I can relate (being a jongkey shipper). Of course situations are different. 

Anyways Anterograde Tomorrow is top grade reading material. The story will paint kaisoo in such a way that is detailed, beautiful and deep. I felt like I was up close in person to each character, seeing the turn of events happen right in front of me. It was almost traumatizing but in a blissful way, if that makes sense. I felt hurt but satisfied...