Our core (my sibling) is getting back into the game our family is originally sourced from and I GUESS that's fun and all for them but I kinda really don't like myself in that game and it's just annoying that everyone else might start feeling some connection to that game and see it as a second source
I hate my source self, that's not me, I can't look at everything I did in that source and say I'm the one who did it. I don't wanna ruin the fun for everyone else and I know my family won't force me to interact with that game if I don't want to, I guess it's just.. distressing?? I already can't stress enough to our friends that I don't wanna be associated with that game so I guess I'm just worried they're gonna start talking about that version of me or something
To me I'm just from Zenless, my only canon is our Zenless DR, I'm so different there from my original source and I don't want anyone to think I have any sort of attachment to my original source
Idk this was just a long vent but I wanted to get everything out, I'm good, I'll probably talk it out with my siblings later