so much
mommy, he’s drugging me again—poking, squeezing my arm again. how are you? are you still dark? still the phantom in my heart? influential—always you’re the poké villain sugar—bittersweet blasting off with the speed of night i won’t surrender— that requires a fight i’m abra, remember teleport away i’m not playing your game—i win with love and light, i will consume you slide down my throat or be swallowed—ha takes me back to the times you fucked me in space had me chasing so much, i couldn’t feel my face— what? what’s the rabbit? the innocence i could be—but i am a survivor: alice, sure, that’s me “she’s chasing the white rabbit,” you joked to your friends—i’ve adopted your references and run wild with my imagination be careful, you should stop unintentionally fueling me—a wildfire wildflower, anchored yet free—flowing uni- multi-versally—oh! infinite mind within a finite creation the mind is infinite are you following me? you unknowingly shed the light on me— the transcendental path: meditation, b— i’m higher than any drug could ever allow me in this universe the human experience— man, i thought you knew it, but you are still not anchored here in the core—light i just have one more observation more sickening than most—you never liked my friend: the golden blue ocean, free as can be, but you? you told me amidst losing my mind—apparently, you’re jewish— who knew? not me race does not matter—can you not see? we have three eyes, not two come on, bro dmt—you once mentioned it to me, do you not know? it is spirit— the spirit molecule inside all of humanity creation itself: it’s found in leaves like daises and other flowers, your growth depends on your pot—your mind open up, expand or don’t and not see you clearly cannot, but i can’t make you— i’m not like that you deserve free will mine—you once took me, do i not deserve the right to stabilize? hate has you— you’re so blind for now, i am higher still—but i hope to hold your hand again someday do i not destroy you, my enemy, by deeming you friend? always you attack, attack i rise, rise i am cosmic sand open your eyes it may be painful to change at first but it is worth so much more in the end, worth so much more than your untainted name, worth so much more than the four elements on earth, sugar, so much more than your chemical high, so much more than your physical sky so much more, you can be so much
