mommy,
he’s drugging
me again—poking,
squeezing my arm
again. how are you?
are you still dark?
still the phantom
in my heart?
influential—always
you’re the poké villain
sugar—bittersweet
blasting off with
the speed of night
i won’t surrender—
that requires a fight
i’m abra, remember
teleport away
i’m not playing
your game—i win
with love and light,
i will consume you
slide down
my throat or
be swallowed—ha
takes me back to
the times you
fucked me in space
had me chasing
so much, i couldn’t
feel my face—
what? what’s the
rabbit? the innocence
i could be—but
i am a survivor:
alice, sure, that’s me
“she’s chasing the
white rabbit,” you
joked to your
friends—i’ve adopted
your references and
run wild with
my imagination
be careful, you should
stop unintentionally
fueling me—a wildfire
wildflower, anchored yet
free—flowing uni-
multi-versally—oh!
infinite mind within
a finite creation
the mind is infinite
are you following me?
you unknowingly shed
the light on me—
the transcendental
path: meditation, b—
i’m higher than any drug
could ever allow me
in this universe
the human experience—
man, i thought
you knew it,
but you are still
not anchored here
in the core—light
i just have one
more observation
more sickening than
most—you never
liked my friend:
the golden blue
ocean, free
as can be, but you?
you told me
amidst losing my
mind—apparently,
you’re jewish—
who knew? not me
race does not
matter—can
you not see?
we have three
eyes, not two
come on, bro
dmt—you once
mentioned it
to me, do you
not know?
it is spirit—
the spirit molecule
inside all of humanity
creation itself:
it’s found in leaves
like daises
and other flowers,
your growth depends on
your pot—your mind
open up, expand
or don’t and not see
you clearly cannot,
but i can’t make you—
i’m not like that
you deserve free will
mine—you once took
me, do i not deserve
the right to stabilize?
hate has you—
you’re so blind
for now, i am higher
still—but i hope
to hold your hand
again someday
do i not destroy
you, my enemy,
by deeming you
friend? always
you attack, attack
i rise, rise
i am cosmic sand
open your eyes
it may be painful
to change at first
but it is worth so
much more in the
end, worth so much
more than your
untainted name, worth
so much more
than the four elements
on earth, sugar,
so much more
than your chemical
high, so much more
than your physical sky
so much more, you
can be so much
