Mahal, I miss you. I miss you a lot that it’s killing me whenever I don’t get any messages from you. That it makes me crazy when one moment you were talking to me then after several minutes, you’re gone again. I’m still not used to not receiving good morning and good night messages from you. Those endless i love yous. Those kisses and hugs you made me feel even just through text or voice message. I miss your voice.. The husky one when you’re sleepy. I miss the way you breathed every time I’m telling you how much I love you. I miss the way you sounded every time you’re saying my name. I miss your laughs. Please say my name again.. Haha. I miss our ‘iloveyou and iloveyousomuch’ competition every night. Where is it now? Seems funny because the only thing I can do for now is to just miss you then die because I can not do anything about it. Know what? I was willing to wait. I already shut the door when you left, shut the door for anyone who wants to enter. I was willing to open it only just for you.. But then, I couldn’t feel that you’re willing to come back. I couldn’t feel that you want me to wait for you. I couldn’t feel that you still want me to be with you in the future. What to do now, love? That’s why I asked you to just forget about me even if I was so scared you might fall in love with somebody else. Even if I want you to always remember me and how much I love you. You made a choice. You made a path of your future and I don’t want to interfere. I know, you’re worth the chase or maybe I’m just too fool to still chase you. I love you okay? I love you but I need to distance myself. Distance? It’s not how far. It’s how hard you must stay away. Sometimes love is not enough to make, the one you love, stay. And your willingness to wait isn’t always enough if he doesn’t really want you anymore. It’s hard to say Goodbye, but I’m still into you so bye for now. Like what I’ve said, I’d be happy to see you genuinely happy with someone else. Summerjetlag
