I have been pondering what it means to live life without a purpose, which I have living in since the end of school. It's kinda funny really, once one loses the stress and pressure they were under that stimulated their mind, then they lose a sense of self and the sense of purpose. Sometimes even losing their creativety. Without the right environment, the mind stops pushing itself, trying to understand and learn, and once that happens, for at least me, it would seem creativity drops, fast. Without the drive to create and understand, life becomes boring, empty and meaningless for that person. So, my conclusion, without a proper environment, I lose my drive to create, I lose my creativety, and I lose my sense of self worth. And in the irony, it is not easy to find to something to do, as you don't know what to do, and it, at least for me anyways, is driving me into a sense of worthlessness, which is driving me into a non-conventional state of depression. And what I mean by non-conventional depression is the lack of purpose, which, over a period of time, can drive someone into a dark state.