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Section 2. Per track reaction Track # 6. The Benefits of Heartbreak (feat. Lee Su Hyun) Lyrics/Romanization [x]

General Comments This song literally passed by while I was doing my first listen for this album. It’s a subdued song, quite simple, chill, R&B vibe, not much of a stand-out but.. I got hooked when the translated lyrics came out! It’s an open ended, sad track. One that depicts a “moving on process” wherein for that person’s point of view, everyday was a struggle, feeling like time stood still but needs to keep a facade on the outside; going thru the everyday motions of life. Keeping busy, doing the tasks that was abandoned during their time together, going out, getting listless, “tomorrow is a rerun of today. Realizing that there’s benefits of being broken hearted, but it will never change the fact that there is nothing left except for time that is rushing and that person is left asking what is it that he/she is living for. 

I like how the 2 rappers tell 2 separate coping mechanisms to get thru a heartbreak, but it all winds up and falls when the hook comes; like you do these things to cope but then at the end of the day you ask yourself what are you living for.

For me, the word ‘benefit’ in the song title can be compared to a band aid, a temporary remedy to a sustained wound, but we all know wounds heal right? 

Favorite Line “The moment your hands left mine, they were replaced by the rushing hands of time” (Tablo, 1st verse)

“Why am I like this? What do I live for? Are you like this? Why me? (Su Hyun, Hook) “Tomorrow is a rerun of today.” (Mithra, 2nd verse)

[laineedl]

If you were arrested with no explanation, what would your friends and family assume you had done?

Causing alarm and scandal because of drinking too much alcohol, went through levels of getting hammered…danced the night away, hogged someone’s place in the dance floor, fought and then it got me into trouble.

[laineedl]

Hey you, my Parallel Line

In the course of my journey, where I took a turn and started anew, I have met you.  And as time passed and never in my sane mind thinking it would occur, my feelings toward you changed.

You have grasped a place in my heart, and despite my utmost denials, I held onto you, never really understanding why.

For me: I wanted to be "your" somebody, That being nice to you makes me happy, Talking to you about silly things, noticing little things that connects you and me makes me happy, Fleeting, everyday moments with you was...happy.

Blurring the lines, well, I wanted it. God knows I really do.  I wanted to connect me to you. In my mind, there was a bridge,  And it was made up of fleeting things, white lies, false hopes and daydreams of moments that might be.  I was hoping you would meet me halfway, but that’s the thing about hope, it makes you desperate, makes you wish and pray a little harder...but heartbreak slowly crept up and knocked.

The time has come for me to make a choice.

And I chose to burn the bridge. Nice and slow; thinking I should stop before I get caught up with it further. Because it was making me unhappy.

The bridge that was made up of fleeting things?  That was just me and the daydreams I built. In the end, the bridge of becoming you and me, never existed, It was just a blur. A big, painful blur.

To me: I created a ghost of you; my daydream turned nightmare. You are “that” somebody who made me lose a chink of my heart, Those fleeting moments haunt me whenever I see you walk, talk, smile, And everyday moments with you became nothing but a... sad heartbreak.

There was no turning back.

In this journey where I took a turn and started anew, I have met you. We are two people who came from different places, bound to meet for a purpose but are never meant to intersect.

We are just like two parallel lines, Always running on the same course, but will never collide. Even if the lines blur we remain the same distance apart, Our lines would never cross, no points, no intersections..

None.

So hey you, my precious parallel line, Until I take another turn, I'm going to stay running with you.  I'm going to continue writing our story, but there won't be a blurred line, fleeting feelings, or a bridge.  I’m saying goodbye to that.

[laineedl]

[RandomQ] What is the stupidest thing you’ve done on your own free will?

Too many to enumerate LOL! I do stupid things without thinking and then fret about it later. 

[laineedl]

[RandomQ] A song that defines the teenage you?

Numb by Linkin Park. “Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow.”  I held on to this song like a candle in the dark; like a balm, helping me get through the rough patch, slowly, one day at a time, understanding that somewhere, somebody knows how lonely the struggles feel and despite all, better days are coming.

[laineedl]

Mini Project: Lainee’s Album Reactions

General Rules:

This album reaction will be sectioned into two (2) parts:

Section 1. Album Over All Reaction A. Lainee’s Special Star Rating (max of 5 stars) Rating it using criteria which includes: Lyrics impact (songwriting), Instrumentals (production) and Overall Feel. 

B.Special Awards -Favorite Track - loved it on 1st listen -Dark Horse Track - it was okay at first listen but upgraded on favorite status because the track surprisingly got better when streamed multiple times

Section 2. Per Track Reaction -Comments on the track -Favorite Line in the track -Score (1-lowest; 5-highest) 1 - did not like it 2 - liked it but forgettable 3 - track grows on you but took multiple streaming 4 - liked it, included in daily playlist 5 - Favorite on 1st listen

Of course, this will be based on my opinions, and the section will be posted on a daily basis, depending on the number of tracks of the album I’m reviewing. For non- English albums (which are a lot), I will include in the post the link on the site where I found the English translations for your reference. This is where I say thank you to fandom fairies because they rock! They breathe life to an international fan like me. 

I know this is a lot! All for the love of music. 

[laineedl]

Introducing my new section: “Lainee’s Random Questions” where I answer random questions I find in the internet. This could vary from totally stupid to existential level questions about almost…guess what? ANYTHING! I’ll try not to be emo or soppy sad because I tend to to that ALL the time. Research is being done and this shall be posted intermittently (depends on my laziness meter). Looking forward to it! Excited!

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More often, boys ask me to come over rather than go out. They ask me my bra size, rather than my favorite book. They ask for my number, not my last name. They ask if I'm taken, rather than if I'm interested. They ask all the wrong questions Which is why I've stopped answering.